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I'm coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my sexual assault in a few weeks and so many things still haven't resolved. I'm scared and anxious and the nightmares are horrific and our justice system hasn't helped me one bit. My family is super dysfunctional and basically expects me to be...

Don't worry I'm not thinking of doing anything crazy at the moment. Especially since I just recently got out of the hospital and definitely don't plan on going back anytime soon. But I won't lie I'm still feeling this way. I'm trying so hard. I promise you I'm fighting like hell but god damn...

I was ambushed by a group of guys from my neighborhood back in February. It was agonizing, to the point where I just begged them to kill me. I won't go much further with the details of that night but rather the threats I've been receiving since. Law enforcement in my area is horrendous and I...

They planned it all. I didn't have any reason to fear walking home from my friend's house that night because it was early and in my own neighborhood. While walking past the park I was grabbed and hit in the head. I was still conscious but I kinda wish I wasn't because I recognized these voices...

In desperate need of some hope. I'm alone here and the weight of the world is crushing me and every minute feels like an hour and I just need a little hope right now.. I was to heal so desperately but this is hell.

I can't get the sound of them laughing out of my head. I can't sleep, or eat. I can't stop asking myself why. Why after everything I've been through, why did this have to happen to me...again! I can't cry anymore, I just don't have any thing left in me..I feel numb. How long will I hurt like...

I haven't been on this site in a few weeks but I'm so alone right now. I was sexually abused as a child by my neighborhood and have a borderline/narcissistic father who physically and emotionally abused me and my siblings which led to my diagnosis or ptsd and depersonalization disorder. All...

He knows he doesn't have a fighting chance but chooses to spend every ounce of his energy convincing others that he does. Saying to them that he's changed because it helps him heal the gaps where his self love should exist. He is never happy with what he has and is always searching for...

Last night my best friend had another schizophrenic episode. It's been almost three years since the last one but this was definitely the worst its ever been. She lives in my neighborhood and doesn't have much of a support system other than me and a few other friends. I did everything i could but...

I'm wondering if I'm over thinking things because of the hurt I've experienced in the past or if how I'm feeling is valid and justifiable. I reached out to my T almost 2 weeks ago in between sessions telling her my depression is the worst it's ever been and asked her if she thought Its time I...

I wrote a letter to my T describing the sexual abuse from my childhood because there was no way I could even try to say it out loud. She read it today during our session and cried. I never expected that kind of reaction, I actually expected her to not believe me (which is a common negative...

I was wondering if anyone had any advice with preventing self-harm while dissociating? It typically only happens for me in the middle of the night after waking up from a nightmare and dissociating due to intense emotional flooding. It's become a vicious cycle for me and the only way to calm me...

It took me 17 years to work up the courage to finally speak up. 17 years of pretending that what he was doing to me, to a little 5 year old girl was just all in my head. That I was the bad one, the dirty one, the freak. 17 years is a long time guys..especially when you're just a kid. But you...

I'm trying. I swear I'm trying to fight this horrible inner voice but it hurts. I'm there emotionally for everyone in my life. I'm compassionate and empathetic towards everyone..people even come to me when they need advice but when I reach out It's like I have some horrible sickness and no one...

Today I found out my mom is kicking out both my brother and I. I've been out of work since October because my ptsd symptoms have been extremely overwhelming. I'm 22 and also just started spring semester classes and don't know how I'm going to not only start a new job but also make enough money...

I recently started therapy about two month ago and was diagnosed with c-ptsd. I've never been to therapy and honestly have been in denial about the unending trauma within my family thats still going on today. My question is how do i tell my new therapist i'm self medicating, self harming and...