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Everywhere I go I am abused. Sexually, physically, emotionally, psychologically, verbally; by my parents, the rest of my family, by my "friends", by peers, by authority, by mental health professionals, and even by people on this website who supposedly have been through similar abuse and should...

When you are depressed, you’re expected to reach out for help. So that’s what I did: I went to several therapists over the years who specialize in trauma and PTSD (group and individual), I've gone through so-called "evidence based" treatment, I probably tried at least 7 different medications, I...

I've grown a lot in the past few years, and I've realized a lot of hard truths about the world. I've always been honest enough with myself to see the world for how it truly is, even while others continue to lie to themselves and others. One thing I've realized is that this thing we call "PTSD"...

So my anxiety/panic is pretty bad. My "resting" or sitting heart rate is pretty high for my age. The last 3 times I went to the doctor my sitting heart rate was 123, 115, and 127. My chest hurts a lot of the time, especially at the end of the day. By the end of the day, especially if I'm sleep...

I'm 18 and still live with my parents. I so want to get away from them but I can't. My mental health deteriorated to the point where I dropped out of school in 9th grade so I'm dependent on them for everything. They are part of the reason I'm like this, (depressed, suicidal, anxious...

I get sleep paralysis pretty often. It comes and goes, sometimes I'll have it more frequently. The first time I can remember having sleep paralysis was when I was 5 years old, I saw a tarantula on the wall in my room. That was around the time I believe my first trauma happened. I'm 18 now and...

I was just thinking about this weird day I had a few weeks ago, maybe longer. I don't remember exactly when. I felt unsettled, and got this sense of something sinister in my past, and it was familiar like it was a memory. Everything seemed darker, lighting and atmosphere. I got the feeling that...

I came across a photo of a girl I was friends with when I was little, and remembered when I was 4 or 5 we were playing at her house and got angry over something stupid and I bit her finger nail off. Yeah, I know, that's pretty bad. I'm pretty sure she had to go to the hospital afterwards...

Sometimes, when unreality really sets in, I feel like I'm supposed to be somewhere else. This world I live in is not the right one, and there's a place outside of here (like another timeline/dimension/etc) where I'm supposed to be, and someone is waiting for me to wake up. This is merely a...

I am at a weird place right now. I suppose I always have been, but especially now. I don't know what to do. It's kinda complicated and I will never be able to relay everything but I'll try to explain my situation anyway. I feel like my story should be out there somewhere, even if relatively...

Does anyone else feel like they're too dissociated most of the time to be hypervigilant? I get hypervigilant sometimes, but not very often because most of the time I'm in a fog, on a different planet, numb, etc. I also don't leave the house very often.

I'm trying to understand hypervigilance more and how it applies to me. The typical hypervigilance you read about is sitting with your back to the wall, scanning the room for threats, etc, but I know everyone is different and unique. How do you experience hypervigilance? Is it typical or...

hi. my title is a little long i think. sorry. so this year some traumatic memories resurfaced. one of them was a vague memory of possible csa, and the other was of a time some boys i knew suffocated me with a pillow. until i had intrusive memories about it, i didn't remember the suffocation...