A place outside of here

[white hyacinth]

Sometimes, when unreality really sets in, I feel like I'm supposed to be somewhere else. This world I live in is not the right one, and there's a place outside of here (like another timeline/dimension/etc) where I'm supposed to be, and someone is waiting for me to wake up. This is merely a simulation, or a different universe, from the one I'm supposed to be in. Sometimes I feel like I'll wake up one day and be there. Sometimes I think I have to kill myself to escape from this place. I think my depersonalization/derealization is bordering on delusional at times. Anyone else think similar things?

 

[Sideways]

Yeah, sometimes the derealisation gets creepy real. I have been known to develop a dangerous apathy - car zooming towards me? Meh! It’s not real so I’m not in any danger.

I’ve had a couple of close calls like that. Time to do some grounding!

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I can associate with the feeling, though I cannot quite pinpoint it. I've been caring less and less about anything, seeing how passing it is, and how much of a chance is that nothing matters, or isn't really real.