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I have been trying to remember my childhood for a while now. I had suspected some kind of CSA had happened but I couldn't pinpoint who or where and only had fuzzy details like body memories, out of place events, and missing memory. I took psychedelics and was put in a state to remember. Some...

Hello all, it's been awhile since I've posted because I've been doing better. But I've been experiencing some pretty heavy symptoms the last few days. Today, while my boyfriend and I were having sex I dissociated really badly because of being triggered and couldn't say no. I couldn't really...

I wasn't sure if this belongs here, but I thought it most topically fit here. Has anyone noticed that they experienced psychotic symptoms after a trauma? Or that certain flashback triggers trigger psychosis for you? I've noticed that mirrors seem to be a huge trigger for psychosis when I...

I've hit a rough spot in therapy where I feel like we're at a place where it's nonproductive. This is the first therapist I've had that I felt I clicked really well with and she is a really good support, but we're now at this place where I feel like I'm coming in every week just talking about my...

Recently I was raped for the second time and because I knew what it was and because I talked to some close friends about what to do I came to the decision of reporting. On Monday I have a formal interview with a detective, but I feel like I'm getting all the details muddled up in my head...

I didn't really know where to put this so I figure it best fit here. My parents had a MESSY divorce. One where my father was abusive towards my mother (at least verbally and psychologically). I was thrown in the middle of it where I became a weapon and an informant and a pawn for both parents...

I feel so paranoid every night. I just moved into a new place and my Landlord is renovating so I don’t have any roommates at the moment. I get so scared and on alert every night where I have to triple check all the locks to make sure someone isn’t in the house. I constantly feel like someone’s...

This week has been rough. My mood and my mind has been all over the place. One minute I want to tackle the world, start a porn channel, fly to Chicago, and do drugs, and the next I'm anxious as hell, suicidal, scatterbrained, and exhausted. I've had two separate friends (thank god for mentally...

I've for a very long time had rape fantasies. As much as I feel ashamed admitting that, I can't deny that fact. I was sexually assaulted two years ago, and the fantasies never stopped. Anyways, flash forward to now. Tonight I negotiated with a trusted partner that I wanted to roleplay a...

I find myself becoming really close with dangerous people all of the time, people that like to manipulate others, that are physically stronger, that are predatory. I similarly find myself in situations where something bad could easily happen, but it's like I've just accepted the fate and go...

Hello all, My pen name is Allison and I've been diagnosed PTSD (likely c-PTSD) and Bipolar (other specified). It feels strange listing off my traumas as an introduction. I'll briefly say that I was sexually assaulted, physically assaulted, experienced childhood physical and emotional abuse...