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I am currently at work and things were going okay but I realized my birthday is in less than a month. For context about 9 or so months ago I got high with a friend and a bunch of represented memories of child sa resurfaced and I have been trying to deal with it but it's really fuzzy on a lot of...

How are you supposed to coop when people have pushed you to the point that nothing else works? I try the breathing and CBT and DBT stuff and it doesn't work. People make me so frustrated and mad and I can't just snap at them because then I'm the bitch so I keep my mouth shut and then it builds...

I have always been told I'm creative and people asked about my drawings and the world's I created and I always thought that was normal but apparently it's not? I can spend hours or days imagining them and vividly coming up with every detail. I've written histories for imaginary worlds because...

My therapist and I have been talking a lot lately about trust and forming "meaningful relationships" but it feels like a waste of time and big risk for small payout. I know my BPD and PTSD have made trusting anyone with my emotions feel impossible but is it not true? When she explains things...

I'm 31 and a transgender woman who has been abandoned by friends 3 times and I've accepted I'm not meant for real relationships but I have been feeling increasingly lonely lately and I don't know what to do. People can't be trusted and they always leave so there's no point in trying to form...

I keep being burned by people who are supposedly my friends but they leave they all leave. What's the point in trusting people if they inevitably end up abandoned you? I have had so many friends try to help me they view me as something to be fixed like I'm damaged and then I try and I open up...

I have been in IOP and trying to process some recently recovered memories from my childhood (ages 15 and under) in which I remembered a man getting into bed with me and doing things a few times. I can't remember his face but I remember the smell of cigarettes, his beard scratching my face and...

I was doing so well for a few months. I've been repressing my negativity and trying to be happy. Every damn day I smile all day and try to be nice and it doesn't matter. Every good thing I do is expected and every mistake is scrutinized. I don't want to be alive. I don't care about being alone...

I posted on here before about how I only feel useful during sex and lately I've learned about Anhedonia which seems to be pretty accurate in describing how I feel If I'm understanding it right. Half the time I feel everything so intensely that I can't calm down or function at all and then...

Hi I have been struggling with CPTSD and I have been struggling with the core belief that my only real use is being a sexual object. I was assaulted in a nightclub when I was 22 (I'm 31 now) and I don't remember much except for freezing and the feeling of him grabbing my arm and throwing me...

Hi, I'm a 31 year old transgender woman who's diagnosed with CPTSD, bipolar, borderline personality disorder as well as general anxiety. I'm trying to put my life back together after growing up with an abusive dad. My first bf was 23 when I was 15, a SA at 21, my family saying it was my fault...