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For more than a month I have HAD to write a report "by tomorrow". The excuses I have used for why it is not written yet, have been ever more insane, but unlike other periods of my life, I have been completely unable to push myself and save my luck. Heck, I have been unable to even act. I just...

Thank you. It is hard to explain, isn't it? People expect rationality. "if he stole from you, he'll leave you alone if you leave him alone". Not true. When I stopped trying to contact him, he freaked out, and started sending me threat mails. This is not about money or criminality or rationality...

He hacks my computer, so anything I do there is monitored. He also hacks my networks, so anything I send can be assumed monitored. It is almost impossible to secure yourself against it. It is like having your home bugged.... I have changed computers, phones, network, e-mail, social media...

The love and care I sense from you, and from people I talk with on psychopath victim forums and other trauma forums I have visited, is so unique. People are so careful and respectful after a trauma. If nothing else, traumatised people seem to have even more capacity for love and care than...

@FindingMyself88 Thank you. I feel you understand very well. And gentle hug back. :-)@Justmehere I am going to the doctor in two days to ask for a therapist. I didn't want one originally, as I felt it was too hard to talk about it all, fearing to not be understood, fearing to be made...

Yeah, I know the threats are real, they come indirectly through friends or directly through small tricks or in e-mails that seem to come from other people, so I open them, or just online. And I am dealing with them as best I can The PTSD activation happened long time ago, when I was terrified...

I have done what I can, but psychopaths aren't necessarily very respectful of what the law tells them, so they can find ways around, and every time the law is after him, he gets triggered to do new tricks, so it's a difficult balance, but I have chosen to continue reporting him, even if he...

Do anyone have advices? I suffer from PTSD after having dealt with fear of being murdered by a psychopath, escaping him at his worst. Now he has started threatening me again, as psychopaths often cannot leave old victims alone. And of course there is a new trauma in that, that I have to deal...

Thank you @NovemberStar! :-)

I just made my best friend call me every 5 minutes and give me a new little task, from a list I made myself and sent him.... This is ridiculous, and I owe him big time, but it is actually working... It is the challenge part of it helping, but I have to find better ways... You may laugh at me...

Oh, you sound so much like me, wow. Thank you for posting that! I was ashamed to tell that much, but my reality is the same as yours. I, too, function and smile and do my job as long as it is immediate and I have to be present, in a meeting, for example, but follow up work, like reports and...

I live in the same place, work in the same place and have the same city around me. This is where it all happened. I have escaped reality by ignoring it as much as I can since it all happened, but I realise I can't live in a tunnel forever. The problem is that every time I open my eyes, and try...

I am not getting my job done, and that is crisis, since I run my own company. I tried everything. Forcing myself, having a friend sit hold my hand while I work (haha) and eating more food, drinking more coffee and smoking like a chimney. Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time…. Nothing...

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Thank you, intothelight, I am not totally sure how to use the forum yet, but I hope to find help. I do not even know if I have PTSD, and I do not really know much about the symptoms of PTSD yet.I was just told by somebody on another forum that I should look into PTSD (as I complained about not...

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I go through a lot of thing I think. Or maybe I don't go through them at all. It feels like everything just stopped. The man I loved, and thought loved me does not exist. I entered the relationship 3 years ago, and at first it was like having a soul mate. 3 years later, he has built a network...

I am a victim of a classic psychopath, and had no idea what happened to me before it was too late. I can't really explain why it is so bad, as it is hard to put into words, it just is. It is not like a crushed heart or a bad relationship being over. It is like waking up from insanity and finding...