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    Our cats

    This is Becks and Loki. Siblings from a local rescue. My son wanted a cat and because we are both gone long hours I didn't want Loki to be lonely so ....I bought my sons cat a cat 😏. Loki on the right is a bit standoffish when it comes to attention. He tolerates it. Becks on the left...
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    Have you done brain spotting?

    Agreed. I am NOT a sobber. I am a quiet crier and while it's often in therapy, it's usually within 10 seconds of starting that I've shut it down automatically, almost unconsciously. Same thing when I'm alone. Never seems to be that deep healing cry. No noise, no body movement. My...
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    Have you done brain spotting?

    I literally just started brain spotting with my therapist 3 weeks ago. Have been doing EMDR for awhile when I don't fight him on it but I get so overwhelmed and I always end up just shutting it down. I positively excel at shutting down and closing off the feelings and memories. And I'm an...
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    The Fear Of Others Finding Out

    Haven't posted in a long long time but I really felt this. I actually thought to myself awhile back how lucky I was that I found this site a few years ago and how much it helps me reading some of these threads but that I can only really go as far as I already have with respect to posting about...
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    My dad accidentally had sex with me thinking I was mum

    I rarely post anything on here, but this statement bothers me SO much. Why is this relevant to Rachels post? Why? If the person who did what they did to me had never done it before and never did it to anyone else after, does that make the damage it caused any less for me? The fact is...
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    I want to cook more. Looking for Suggestions

    Also a fan of Recipe Tin Eats
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    I want to cook more. Looking for Suggestions

    As Buildingself24 said, Pinterest is wonderful for finding recipes. I love to cook. I love food. And I like to feed people I care about. It's a way for me to show love. I didn't always follow recipes but when I do, I get a lot of recipes from Pinterest. A very good place to start.
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    What Others Think is More Important Than What I Think or Feel

    I relate to this. I'm with you on the physical aspect of it. I surrendered to the fact that I'm just not an attractive person years ago. I'm a generally nice person, or at least I try to be and hope that I am viewed as such. And I understand that for some people, physical attractiveness...
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    How to break shame cycle re my role in csa

    These two statements bring up such an immediate reaction for me. Made my throat close off and my chest tighten up for a second. This is so relatable for me. So very much this.
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    What to do with this relationship? Coping with Sexual Assaults In Long Term Relationship.

    Thank you @Movingforward10. Was honestly just hoping to give a post relationship perspective. It took me a very long time to realize how unhealthy it all was. And how the reasons that I tolerated went further back than I knew. When I first left my husband, my T said something that has...
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    What to do with this relationship? Coping with Sexual Assaults In Long Term Relationship.

    I can truly relate to these words LucyLou. These thoughts of yours made me cry as I know exactly where your feelings are in this. I know that things from my childhood negatively affected it as well but during my marriage, particularly the last 10 years of it, this was very much my...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    My T tells me the same. And just like you, I also think...."but it does matter". It's almost like I feel as though I can't any kind of closure/healing unless I see it all through from beginning to end. Like I have to have the whole story in order for me to finally believe it. And...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    I so very much understand how you're feeling. I told my T quite awhile ago now and I still wobble back and forth between the fact that I know that these reactions and triggers that I have are coming from somewhere and the question of how can something so horrible be contained without conscious...
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    It wont stop replaying..sorry so long

    I relate to this very much. When i first told my T about my thing, the next 5 days my mind was swirling with 38 years of repressed emotion though i couldn't really identify what the emotions they were. Not sure how to describe it. Like if you drew a picture of someone's mind and then just...
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    Service Dogs (2023)

    I actually think they should be familiar with the feel of muzzles. Not because they're needed for everyday interaction. My dogs are always largely socialized with people, different situations and sounds, and other dogs. But God forbid you're traveling and get into an accident with your dog...
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    Service Dogs (2023)

    Also a Rottie owner and lover for 30+ years. I've always wondered how well the gentle leads would work but I've never gotten one and have never heard anyone mention then in my breeder group so I made the obviously incorrect assumption that maybe they didn't work very well so I'm glad it read...
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    Twitching and struggling to get words out when approaching trauma, anyone else?

    I have similar issues. When T and I get close enough to the bad thing, my twitching starts and he definitely notes it. If I try to pretend like we're not getting close to something (because it remains my ridiculous goal to attempt to throw him off and send his questioning into a different...
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    Easily startled/ friendships

    Just sharing that you aren't alone in this. I can see someone coming straight towards me and I'll still have what to them I'm sure appears to be an overdramatic reaction if turn my back before they reach me. But it's automatic. My body just does this thing all on its own. My co workers...
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    Therapy is hard!

    Thank you for that. Sincerely
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    Therapy is hard!

    I call it "the thing". I can call it what it is in my head, but I can't say the word. I don't mean I won't. I can't. I've tried. I can get the first letter out and that's it. It just stops. T has said the word and it immediately makes everything in me tense up and my eyes begin...
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    Does anyone go in and out of denial?

    All. The. Time. And like Freida.....I've lost count of how many times I've said to my T "You don't KNOW that this is all real. There is way too much that I've not been able to remember. Maybe I'm just better at telling stories than you are detecting lies. Maybe I'm just a really good...
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