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I guess you'll never know until you take action. I took time off work once and it didn't work for me, it made me worse. I had nothing to keep me busy so I was absorbed in my thoughts all day everyday. Being at work is hard but it allows me to get out of my head. But it might work differently...

No, I haven't. I will brig it up with her so we can discuss it more. Maybe then I'll know why I react this way. Thanks Shimmerz

@Ayesha i can't change my t now, I'm just going through a lot right now and I need someone who knows and understands me. I'm considering getting a new t once things have settled and are back to 'normal'. @Lemontree I'm not sure, but my guess is that it's because my abuser appeared to be a...

I've been going through some difficult time this past few days, my t has been really kind and giving me all the support I need. Now, here's a sad story of my life: the kinder you are to me the horrible I will be to you. I know that doesn't sound good, but I find that every time I'm going through...

Today is my last day with my current employer, I have mixed feelings about leaving. I generally don't do well with change, I like things to remain the same. I'm now struggling to go in to the office building to get my belongings, everyone would be wanting to say goodbye. They were all so good...

Not sure if I should start a new thread or just add to this one. I emailed my t about the incident yesterday and told her that I wanted my mom to stop. I asked t if I could call my my mom during our session so I have someone around when I ask my her to stop telling me about my abuser. I'm happy...

It's something I need to go through, I have to change my t but I'm scared. I keep thinking what if I find a t that doesn't understand me at all. I also need a t I can talk to about leaving my current t. I'm really interested to know how it'd go with you. Keep us posted.

I often try to do something which allows me to quiet my mind, like painting. It often requires me to focus and shut out all the external and other noises. All that I see and feel is color, I was just writing in my diary this morning about how I enjoy the feeling I get from painting.

I hope that the rest of your day is better and kinder. Happy birthday and many more happy years ahead.... Hold on to that hope:hug:

Thank you for all your comments, @stenni I'm thinking about writing that sentence and practice saying it. After spending some hours in hiding I feel much better now, I just hope it won't happen again tomorrow. Right now I would actually appreciate a week of not hearing about him. I need...

I will try to explain what I am going through briefly, my story is that I was sexually abused and a few years ago I decided to tell my parents about it. my mother said: if it's no longer happening then there's nothing to discuss, my father asked me why I allowed the abuser to abuse me. This was...

@stenni I've been feeling really strange like I am not myself. so i decided to reduce my dose and only take them before bed but I would still wake up feeling sluggish. Today I decided to stop taking them and I feel much better. I was also able to do some work, I hadn't done anything from the...

She's added Topalex to everything else that I'm taking. Maybe it is placebo effect, will give it a week and see how I feel then

I've always wanted to go back to dancing but I'm not sure if I'm brave enough. I'll definitely give it a thought, I would really like to dance again

I have been put on new meds from yesterday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I feel a little out of of space, like I'm not my normal self. Unaware of my surroundings, I have a little to care about. I emailed my doc and she said I should give the meds a week and I will get used to it. I have...

@Rumors she said yes she loves me. Compared to the other times, it didn't sound real. @TreeHugger i have never been able to confront any issue in life, I wish I could have asked if she was upset and why. I never say what I mean, I always doubt myself :( I think I will find another therapist but...

it hurts that you all think I should change a therapist, I know it's probably the right thing to do. but it is so hard, very hard!

@digger , boundaries as in when I say I love her or when she says it to me, it's clear what we both mean and I feel safe with her and can accept her love. @Ayesha yes, it is the same therapist. Every time I think of changing her then I think I should just quit therapy altogether, I am not...

@WillyKat . as odd as it may sound I love my T. there's a lot she's helped me through. she's become more of a mother to me than a therapist and I guess that's what I really wanted in life (a mother figure). She has become more available and she started being all this to me when I relocated...

I understand that it's not her job to say that she loves me,, and at first it was hard for her to say it until the one time she asked me what I wanted and I said i wanted to be loved and told that I am loved. she asked what I meant by being loved, and I said like a mother's love. I think the...

I have been going through some hard time, I have a lot of things going on at the moment. I am changing jobs, and moving to another province, I am also back at school this year. Everything is happening so fast and at the same time. I have been in a really dark place, found myself emailing my T...

It happens to me, the wrist part of it is that when I'm mute for long then I get so angry with myself then I end up walking out during the session. my therapist had to find a way to make me stay for my entire session, so if I'm mute for long then she leaves the room. That way she can come...

I am so sorry, I am shocked by the response you got from your friends. You did the right thing by contacting them and I think it was very brave of you. I think you need to make friends who'll understand what you are going through and will be supportive. :hug:

I haven't posted on this forum in a very long time, things were going ok. I am still in therapy even though I have reduced the number of sessions I do per month. I have been in this province for just over 13 months and I think it's time I moved back to my home town. I have managed to secure a...

I'm in a better place today. Back in my cave and things are slowly getting back to normal, " whatever normal means". I've been thinking of apologising to my therapist but again I'm a very proud person. Fridayjones you have a point, I'm very good at pushing people away especially when I don't...