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Finally doing some chores I've put off again. Went to therapy today and had a good talk...but it looks like Wednesday she will ask this question and try again to talk about it: "I'd like to ask, if there's nothing more pressing to talk about today...why you think you may be dissociative?"...

So here I am. Another week and I spent 4+ days without leaving my house. I've spent the past two days beating myself up over it, until I came here and saw my last post on this thread: about how I think I'm taking it easy, but I'm really really not. I swear: if I could just stop arguing with...

He looks very sweet! If you don't already have a cat: he will definitely help you feel better each day. ;)

I am slightly frustrated, but less anxious since last night: thinking my blood tests were wrong and jumping to conclusions...not actually thinking of how much I have over-worked my stress levels the past few days. My body is trying to tell me I have NOT slowed down OR been easier on myself. I...

@Ayesha This may be a triggering, but the documentary 'Hitler's Children' really helped me realize some things about my own identity confusion, my distant relatives and my german friends' older relatives. Not sure if you have access, but it might still be on Netflix. It was very interesting...

Hi @Ayesha I can really understand what you mean: I'm also working through a very similar identity problem. I've struggled for years trying to find information on it, but have had no luck. I've had memories as early as kindergarten with wanting to be anything but myself. In middle school, I...

I'm going to make a point to leave home at LEAST every other day. And attached to this, I am wanting to start walking around the park across from my complex...just having a little trouble (why I've never liked walking) with anxiety of running into people while walking, or simply just feeling...

Went to therapy and had an upbeat session, went to grocery store with low stress, came home and took out trash in daytime (half social/ half paranoia challenge). I went back out (been super isolating lately) to another store, and came home to enjoy my small "treats": Cute pens (for journal)...

I woke up anxious. It might have been from having a very obvious processing dream...I guess that's what you would call it. Definitely talking to therapist about it tomorrow. It was weirdly very telling of my problems today. Right down to using my first mobile phone= At 26, I still have the...

I believe it's the exact opposite of weak. For myself: I seem to have gone through tough and horrible situations again and again. I almost believe that these things come to me because my toughness attracts it. And if this, -on some weird energy level- takes bad situations away from people who...

Finally heard back from my tests and no one (honestly NO one) knows how much I needed good news. I was expecting bad or just not-great news, but I found out that I DON'T need another surgery (a category in my life, that is tied in several different ways with my PTSD) and I have only a minor...

@Britt.f7 and @Ms Spock and @Definitely..maybe Thinking good thoughts for each of you! Hoping you each will get good news!

I might actually be taking an "easy" day today. At home. I just got a huge rush (very dizzy now) from daring myself to take a package (left at my door) to the right apartment, 2 flights down, while no one else is home. 0_o But I DID it!!! In a jacket and PJs!

"Sweetie...I don't understand a WORD you just said..." -said with a smile, inspired by Karen Walker, on Will & Grace or "Honey, you're as simple as that blouse you're wearin'." -also Karen ;)

I was dealing with my own issues earlier and took a warm bath with epsom salts (with magnesium) and it helped way more than I expected. I'm pretty sure you could also try soaking your feet/legs in a epsom salt bath, because the magnesium is absorbed through skin and helps de-stress. Just make...

@Britt.f7 So glad to know it's not just me... I have no idea why, but remembering to eat seems more difficult than anything else!

I'm trying to take an easy-going day today, but it is VERY difficult to just sit and relax. How does one just chill and relax? I plan something, but run into other things, then worry about all I need to do. (This could also be my ADD, but I literally have not been able to slow down even my...

@Britt.f7 I've actually dreamed of dying my hair with several colors when my hair goes all gray/white. I wanna be a "cool" granny when I'm old. ;)

If I could... -I would not chat with people in whatever way I seem to be doing now, which leaves me with zero friends...but I'm still not sure if it's me, or the fact that I seem to attract manipulative people like a magnet. -I would buy a radar that could tell me stable/sane people from...

What's left of my day (taking it easy today): 1. Find one more thing to eat for "lunch". 2. Get dressed. 3. Walk laundry down to car, and most likely pass by college kids that I avoid (same age, but triggering). 4. Take laundry to sister's, and watch a movie with her. 5. Bring laundry back...

I hear ya on this! Is there something with the moon this week or something??? I sat down in therapy yesterday and the most I could shake out in the first ten minutes was, "Sorry, I'm... just-a-ball-of-stress-this-week!" When she told me "It's okay, just take a minute if you need it.." I was...

Please go with your heart! ;) My 10 year old cousin frustrated me this Christmas by asking her parents for a new ipod touch: she has an ipod touch 4 (but would not let me help her fix it, told me she's tried everything, but had no clue what I meant by saying I would clear the memory), an iPad...

Went to therapy today and I'm feeling better about what bothered me last session (I seem to be doing "transference" and I know exactly why: moments of quiet trigger me to think the therapist is "done" with the conversation, like my parents do). Even though I seem to be having more panic attacks...

I finally did bloodwork today for my ongoing stuff. And my apartment is so clean, it looks like an adult cleaned it up. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow that....I'm hoping I can discuss something I wish wasn't anything (talking about my problems talking to a psych). I'm quite late going...

@Ms Spock Double-triple points for taking care of medical things!!! (it is one of THE toughest things for me.)