I totally relate with Friday but also I was thinking that with you saying that it's in remission for the third time you aren't sure if you can completely believe that it is in remission or not since it has came back in the past, and you truly want to be happy but there is still a part of you...
Luckily I haven't been to a truly "civilian" doctor yet so I guess that is a blessing in disguise for me at the moment. I have ran into a couple of instances where people just don't get it. In the past I have made it aware and sometimes still make it aware on my facebook page that I struggle...
It's interesting reading what I wrote and wasn't completely clear. I think the main thing I was getting at is trying to find stability. I still fight the thoughts that I'm not worthy of the ptsd diagnosis and that people with ptsd have been out on convoys and blown up or in the civilian sector...
@SheilaKathy I was just thinking of a video you might like. Look up Skit Guy - God Chisel on youtube. It has helped me in the past and probably should watch it again. It has so many biblical truths in it about who we are to God.
I know this was posted back in 2015 but I'm wondering if anybody can shed some light on this matter? I have been doing some heavy self searching today and figured out that I'm in general tired mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and physically. And I think me being tired ends up coming down to...
I can relate so well to you. I like to go off into nature and take photos. I also enjoy going on walks or bicycle rides. I to have two small children and that is where I struggle so much in self care because if I take them with me then I'm concerned about if they are having fun or not or if they...
So I know Halloween is about 6 months away but I was reading an article about the mental illness stereotype and the stigma around mental illness. I was thinking what if a bunch of people dressed up as themselves but had a sign on them saying mental health patient or something like that to show...
I know I have a hard time opening up and I think it has definitely hindered some of my progress, but my last therapist I don't think was really all that beneficial. But glad that I have a new one now.
what if you don't bring up the diagnosis but bring up things that you have noticed and bring up the things that you might have had as well when you had PTSD that way it shows him that you can see where he is coming from with different things.
I use to play a lot of first person shooters that were modern warfare related but realized it was getting to be a problem when I would get angry and frustrated with the lack of teamwork on the game and still be angry when I would stop playing the game.
For me it was 18 because I went off to the military and they weren't close enough to attend any of my doctors appointments. But I remember when I was younger probably about after I hit puberty when it got to the point where the doctor would close to door to do the whole turn your head and cough...
I feel similar about all the years of therapy. I am aware of the thoughts and feelings. I can even see where they come from and why they happen sometimes. But now that I am aware of them I want to get ride of them. I learned to challenge them in the past but going through the process of...
For me it worked a little bit but after a while of not doing it then everything came back. To me it sucked starting and got to the point where it wasn't but only a temporary fix.
I have noticed lately that I really relate to the Wrong side of Heaven by five finger death punch. Especially the chorus which is.
Arms wide open
I stand alone
I'm no hero and I'm not made of stone
Right or wrong
I can hardly tell
I'm on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell...
@Joshua Cox you aren't stupid at all. I still call people sir and ma'am. I have gotten so many people that say you can just call me and say their first name and I always say I'm sorry it's a habit from the military.
I hear you there. I have been feeling like that lately. I had my first cognitive processing therapy (CPT) appointment a week ago tomorrow and my second one tomorrow. My homework for this last week was to focus on what my thoughts and feelings are. I had to do that when I was in therapy a while...
@Cathy O. You brought up something very interesting I never thought about before. I remember growing up I thought the smell of body odor was gross but now I'm repulsed by it because the Afghani people either didn't know what deodorant was/isn't important to them/they couldn't afford it or...
Well I can't change my vote but I found out at my last appointment that I can call my therapists office anytime I feel like I need her and if she isn't available then I can call the general office number and talk to somebody. She even told me that I don't have to be suicidal to call the veteran...
have things gotten any better or did you end up posting in the anonymous forum? I'm really sorry you are going through this I hope it gets better. My assumption of her saying that she can't treat someone like you is that she either feels overwhelmed or that she is having a hard time separating...
Reading this really hit me in a special way. I always enjoyed nature growing up but even more so now. I remember growing up I always thought fishing or hunting was boring because the majority of the time you are just sitting there in nature waiting for something to happen. Now I can just sit out...