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Thank you...I know. He is vile...he knows I am at the lowest point in my life n instead of being there for me like a good human being. He is trying to use me. I sent him a final goodbye email...I will be strong for the sake of my kids. I have so much to offer but I take this time to enjoy my...

Thank you @joeylittle...I need to break this cycle. The reason why I posted such a lengthy post to show you what I did if I did anything wrong n what his response was...which is the honest truth. I need to see that he is incapable of keeping a friendship or having someone care for him. I have...

It's so easy for everyone to say mean hurtful things...but I am saying it as how I feel right now. I am hurt right now that is all n I was just reaching out...sorta like dishing out my feelings. I have read allot of post on here from carers that have been left out in the cold by some of their...

@Solara...I wasn't looking for a relationship w/him. I didn't leave my husband to be w/ANYONE. I am proceeding in my life on my own. He was there for me when so many things happened in my life was crazy n I was just in a way returning the favour. I care for him as a person n I loved him for...

Thank you @Berlinda...thank you so much from the bottom of my heart thank you for understanding. It's not a on/off switch. If it was that easy n if I was in the right place...trust me I would do it in a heartbeat or take a pill to forget him BUT I care for him A LOT. He knows that...n he took...

Yupe...you are right @Solara. I need to cut the ties. I need to forget someone like him even exist.

He is a PTSD Sufferer on 100% disability...I don't know much about PTSD before him...but have been reading on this forum to get to know him.

So true @moonbeam...I don't know but maybe its my self esteem that is very low at this point that I feel like I am chasing him. I know in my heart that he is not being a good person to me n I do deserve better. The more I care for him the more he pushes me away n he makes me feel like I owe...

Thank you so much @Berlinda It's very very very hard but I am trying my very best to be strong but today is my weak point that is why I am here...he has disappeared before n reappeared many times. I reading n rereading all the post on here to keep me strong but its so hard. I just want to hear...

Thank you @Berlinda...it hurts so much :( I am trying to lead a normal life but its so lonely cause I don't know if its really over. I mean we had a great time when we are together but as soon as I have to leave...he turns sour n just disappears. I know I have to give up any hope for any sort...

Monday March 24th...he called me after not talking to me over a week. He called to ask me for money...here I am trying my best to support myself n my kids. Our one hour convo was pleasant in the begining all cause he doesn't really talk to anyone...I just listened to him talk cause I was...

Thanks @Born to Run...he did contact me yesterday...talking about his cat (so cute), n about his dad's bday after about half an hour into the conversation he asked me again for money. I just told him accept me for who I am...like I am accepting you w/all your qualms w/no expectations do the...

Thank you so much @Born to Run from the bottom of my heart...I am trying to let go but its hard. I feel used, betrayed n just plain sad but you are right...I need to let go. For the sake of my heart. It's sad to hear him sometimes use his PTSD to make me feel sorry for him when there are real...

I am sorry @Born to Run I just saw your post...thank you for being fair :( Bottom line I am just hurting cause I tried everything to please this man n have always been there for him...he has asked me many times for money. I don't want him to like me or continue talking to me for money. As soon...

Thank you @Keepingthefaith5 I am taking this time to heal myself...but I am no matter what he has said to me in the past or done now...still am worried about him. Just like how he was there for me during my hard times (my cat dying, my younger sister getting a masectomy) I wish he knows I am...

Thank you @FridayJones for your insite! I was not in a horrible marriage...my ex husband to this day is a very, very good man. He just couldn't understand the person I am...I am out going, fun, loving n since being raised here (coming from Malaysia when I was six) my expectations were...

Thank you @Keepingthefaith5 I appreciate your advice...I am trying my best to lead a better life. My apologizes if I offend anyone about my past but its who I am n its the honest truth.

Look...I know I made mistakes...I was in an arranged marriage! Does anyone know what that is? I met my husband 2 wks before I married him n it was arranged by my parents. I married young...I tried my best to make it work! I stayed in my marriage for 16 years...I met this guy last summer... I...

Yes...I didn't tell him I was married or I had kids...but I was only speaking to him about friendship cause I had a sick cat at that time n he had knowledge about it n I didn't know what was PTSD or he had until after he found out everything...but since than I have been seperated n trying to...

I did nothing wrong @Born to Run...he tried to use me but I stuck to my guns n said no to the money. I told him when I contacted him on the site...you love me for me not for what I have. I loved you for what you are not what you are willing to give me n he couldn't :( Now I am hurting cause I...

I am sorry I wasn't very clear @Born to Run but he is the one w/PTSD. We met thru this site...when I was thinking of leaving my husband but I was leaving him for me not him n he was always planning on moving to CO. We have been talking for about 10mths. Well I left my husband due to him also...

Just a week and a half ago we had a great day...he moved here from OK n now is in CO. At first he didn't want to see me but I insisted...I told him I was going to go see American Sniper again (my fourth time) n it would have been his 3rd time. I got the tics n told him to meet me at the...

YOU DEF DESERVE BETTER GLARA...I have never in my life cried more for one person than I have for all 3 of my kids. I wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy...his suicide attempt was a complete FAKE! He def played w/my emotions...it hard Glara but I have a friend who was in a very abusive...

@Glara ...definitely like that for me as well! The things he told me n the calls he made to me when he was down n me staying on the phone w/him till 5 in the morning...just listening to him talk about his feelings, his family...just like how he comes in out of the blue...he disappears. Right...

I definitely will @Glara ...but he is not moving here to be w/me. He has always wanted to move here before he met me but knowing that he was suppose to be here this week that part hurts. I wish he would just reach out to me so I know he is ok. Been staring at my phone all weekend...just crazy...