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Hey, it has been awhile. I really missed this

I'm at the point where I understand my circumstances...but I'm very lonely.

I haven't posted in awhile...I really miss my vet, but I'm finally understanding that he wasn't good for me...he made me feel lower than low. I asked him to watch a movie with me...and he acted like I may as well have cut out some organ. I finally told my mom that one of my problems with me...

I'm glad I could help. I'm super happy to know you're feeling a bit better. Don't EVER hesitate to reach out when you're having a bad day. That's what we're all here for. I know sometimes I feel guilty or that I'm over reacting, but I think deep down we know when we need help.:hug:

You're not a failure, and you certainly aren't a waste. When bad stuff happens we internalize it too much. It's not your fault, you're a strong person, and I won't judge you for your past.

Thanks so much. I really needed to hear this. It put perspective in my emotionally driven and panicky side. Set goals not hope is a fantastic way to put it.

That we can at least have some sort of civil relationship in the future. We were everything to each other for over a year, and for that to be all gone has left me in limbo.

Ugh update: He only texts me back when I question about the kitten's health. He doesn't do small talk yet. I logged on to Xbox and he re deleted me from his friend list again. It may be because I added myself when I was helping him through an area on the game, and he didn't like that. I...

Thank you so much! I'm glad I have someone to relate to. It also gives me motivation to keep posting.

My vet ( during his period of isolation) has only been responding to things that truly have no emotional response and are important (like me asking about the kitten I saved) If I ask something like which video game is the best for rpg. He won't respond. I wish I could help. I am just scared to...

Haha! It's like looking at my life. One time I (seriously) was making him tacos and he said "You cook like you're in a hurry. You need more patience" What does that even mean?!

Omgosh! Yes! (btw we dated for a year. Lived together for about 7 months? We are technically still on a break? haha) to the question thing! I'll ask how his day is. He'll just shrug or say something super negative. Or I'll ask something stupid even like "what's your favorite color?" and his...

It IS a confusing world! I'm starting to think the reason he kept avoiding me is because he didn't really ever have a good reason (I know since his PTSD it was a good reason for him) for cutting me out. So he was afraid I'd bring it up. That's just what I gathered, I really don't have a clue.

I was recently isolated from my ex-boyfriend (explained in previous posts) for about a month now. Saturday I found a two week old kitten abandoned outside my apartment. I have been feeding it formula, and it was thriving. Sunday, however, I got really worried about it. It stopped moving and I...

Thanks everyone. It's weird, but after getting all this stuff out that I have never talked about before makes me breathe easier. I don't feel as tensed up as usual.

I do want to add this before I go. One day right after I found out my future husband was going to be deployed we went to a bar to see a band. I was depressed and drinking. I was at the bar and asked my bf if I could smoke a cigarette. He knew I was drunk. He got mad that I kept asking and...

I felt better last night after my post, but I had trouble sleeping. I usually have nightmares about not being in control. I dream that I am trying to take a shower or something but people keep walking in, or I dream people keep taking my stuff (mostly my sister). I don't like it when people...

I can't thank you enough for the relief I feel from your comment. My mom taught me my problems are so minor, that it makes me feel stupid to talk about them. I already feel pressure off my chest that I am not completely over reacting about my past. Thank you a million times over.

I feel like a fraud to be posting here, but I will to see if I feel better. I had a good childhood. My whole family is very loving. What bothers me the most is that I was raised to believe emotion is bad. Anytime I cried over something my mom would get angry and tell me how worse other...

I hope you're doing okay. I hate that his all happened to you. I know you haven't told the extent of your trauma, but I"m impressed how much you have been able to express. I hope this takes some of the weight off. Journals like this always deeply upset me because everyone deserves to have a...

This hits very close to home. I've been isolated out by my ex-boyfriend for around a month now. We dated for a year, and what seemed quickly, but now that I think about it drug out for some, he pulled away. He won't even respond to my texts anymore. I think the only reason he didn't do this...

Do you think it just got to be too much for him?

He is a vet, and he's told me some horrible stories. I feel like he wanted a relationship, but in the end, just couldn't handle it.

I hate that you feel alone,but know that you aren't alone. You have gone through so many traumatic experiences lately that I am so proud of you for asking for help. Being abandoned by family, especially In Times of need, can make you give up on humanity...please don't. You are important...

It has been about a month since he isolated me. The last time I texted him was last Saturday when I dropped off the rest of his belongings. How did he go from standing in the rain at the front door because I was depressed, telling me how he loved it when I put my head his shoulder to saying...