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    A Dystopian Mindset

    Yes, for sure. It's nice to feel there are alot of places on Earth where things that might be worrying you here don't matter. That we can at any time escape it. I have definitely associated airports with adventure in the best way possible :) Sometimes when things get too much here I will just...
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    A Dystopian Mindset

    Again, I totally agree! Funnily enough, me and my partner went on holiday not long ago and one of the things I was really looking forward to is being in the airport. I think you've hit the nail on the head as to why airports seem very...seperate from here. A reminder that there's something...
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    A Dystopian Mindset

    I feel you on this alot, but you have worded it when I don't think I could. These times are very difficult and I feel sometimes the world is very cold and unforgiving. I think it's great you wrote this because it helps to be reminded there are others out there who feel the same. That comforts me...
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    I Can't Take This Feeling Anymore...

    :hug: if you accept them
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    I Want To Start Over

    Yeah, I know that, and I will. I've commented on a couple or so threads before but idk, I feel kind of hypocritical when I try to give people advice when I have trouble comprehending the same stuff myself? In the past couple of years I've tried to give a lot more, but I will try to come on here...
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    Thank You

    Second your post, thank you everyone x
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    I Want To Start Over

    You're right, and our experiences seem to be similar. I know logically I'm looking back through a rose tinted camera lense but I guess it made me realise quite how much I crave the love I saw on the videos. I just want to make being here worthwhile and make that baby be someone it is good to be...
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    I Want To Start Over

    So, I haven't been on here in a while. I come on here only when I need something it seems. I feel like that's a pattern in my life and I'm sorry. Things were going okay, I've been motivated and have been seeing reward for it. Felt like life was going okay and that I was finally okay in myself...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Found a place with a trauma therapist, getting an assessment tomorrow. How's that for starters? :D On my way up!
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    I saw the diagnostic criteria for ptsd and the only thing I don't have is any in criterion C. So even if I don't have PTSD I definitely have a lot of issues associated with it for sure. I might be relocating to a different country soon with my partner so hopefully it'll be to somewhere that...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Also if I don't have PTSD is it still okay to be a member of this site? :giggle:
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Thank you so much, you're right I think it's the best thing to do because regardless of any diagnosis I think talking to someone who specialises in trauma will definitely be good for me. I just really want to make sure that there is going to be some benefit to talking about the things I...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    I'm really sorry I feel like I've been so ignorant just jumping on a PTSD diagnosis, I'm just really desperate to make some sense out of it all and I thought if my feelings were caused by trauma that it would most likely count as some form of PTSD. To be honest with you all I'm somewhat scared...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    I just really feel alot of my problems stem from the bad things that happened, when does it cross the line from having symptoms from a trauma to ptsd? I didn't mean to disrespect anyone by self diagnosing and I know it's not good to do but I am so stuck with not knowing what is wrong in my head...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    I'm going to call them tomorrow, going to talk to the people with the EMDR fund and see if they can help me get an assessment
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Yup, thank you, I have been so worried that she and others just see something I don't. Like maybe I'm a really bad person and just haven't realised. Feel more insane coming out the session than I did going in sheesh :/ pleased to know I'm not alone in these thoughts though
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Thank you, the stuff I told her I have not really told ANYONE and I think I'm upset I brought it up for no reason. Just wanted to tell people who will believe me because it's so bad here I'm starting to not even believe myself
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    She's a psychiatrist and should have the reports from the psychologist I had CBT with, but either doesn't or hasn't read them. I don't know :( it's a big mess I think and now I feel like a totally overdramatic idiot
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    I live in a small town and she's the psych for the whole area, I understand she has a lot of work so maybe that's why she can seem dismissive. Wouldn't know what to do about a second opinion tbh. I know people who are doing a fund for people who want EMDR and they said I can access it if I ever...
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    Psych Says I Don't Have Ptsd Because I Don't Have Nightmares?

    Okay, so I really came to the conclusion I have PTSD a few weeks ago and have been waiting to see my therapist who can be hit and miss in terms of actual help. I finished a course of CBT last year with a therapist and made some good progress. Talked about my upbringing and stuff so it's all...
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    Darkness

    very heartfelt, some parts I could really empathize with. *hugs* if you accept them
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    Crippling Shame And Vocal Tics

    If I'm honest I think you're right about me maybe being scared of the borderline diagnosis because I know people who have that diagnosis and I see how much they suffer. I also notice they're very self destructive and it furthers my worry that I was so bad I pushed my mother be the way she was :/...
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    Done

    Thank you so much, feeling a bit better today. So happy to have a group of people who understand. It really means alot to me <3
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    Crippling Shame And Vocal Tics

    Yeah this is the thing, I see alot of people with PTSD/Anxiety who have physical tics like what you mentioned and I fidget alot but it's not a tic. I have no idea why my psych thinks it was road rage, I think she's skeptical which I understand, her caseload is WAY too big. Sometimes I'm...
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    Done

    Thank you all so much, ordered myself something to eat, going to watch a film and try again tomorrow. I appreciate all of you :hug:
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