I agree with everyone who says to find a new T. Especially if you've already been uncomfortable over time and it's not getting better. Some of the things you listed are extremely questionable, if not downright unethical.
oh and as for what I'm doing about it - I just force myself into those situations. Sometimes there is nothing to do but muscle through with gritted teeth and extreme anxiety.
I agree with @Hopefulphoenix, @Living in the 70s makes a spot on point. Since my abuse started from womb on, a sense of self would inevitably be warped from the get go.
@Junebug - everything you said. Agreed.
And my own answer is pretty much the same as @EveHarrington 's. I was always the most...
I just wanted to say hello and that I just found your trauma diary. It made me feel less alone because I too didn't realize what my mother did to me was sexual abuse until my 30s. I always suspected it was covert incest, but it was rather overt, too. It definitely takes a long time for trauma to...
Thank you so much for your insightful, knowing response. I'm glad I waited to read that post. It lacks compassion but I feel supported to have you explaining it to the OP. We are all welcome to have our feelings here and not to have them put down, dismissed, or belittled. I'm trying to figure...
I called the Suicide Prevention Line a few months ago and they put me on hold for so long I ended up hanging up and calling a friend instead, who, thank God, was home to pick up.
Now, I'm reading how so many people call the Crisis line as a fallback. It pisses me off - that they'll pick up for...
I hear you.
I just ended therapy with an absolute shitstorm of a woman and I won't be seeing anyone else for a LOOOONG while.
A question, if you think it might be helpful. You can completely ignore if not helpful and just want a listening ear:
Would it help you or make you feel better to say...
Same here. I only microdose, which is unofficially defined as taking just enough to not get high. For me that was 1-2 mg (a nail sliver amount) for a few months and now I can go up to 2-3 mg. Since any kind of smoke irritates my throat, I only take edibles, which are well-measured here in my...
I reread some of this thread, particularly the post by @Sideways, and it was so helpful on a night like this, where the trauma train is chugging away, my monkey mind riding on it.
I saw my own post and I was surprised at how well adjusted I was over a year ago...I don't have that currently. I'm...
I need everything to stop for a moment so I can breathe. I need this nightmare to end. I need this all to be the worst dream on earth. I need to feel I am loved unconditionally. I need to know I'm going to be okay.
I have to agree with Eve and voice a second support of this sentiment. Feel free to throw this question to the wind if it doesn't apply, but I wonder if this relationship fulfills a rescuer role for you?
Way too frickin' cold!!! Where is our summer? We're supposed to be summer about 8 or 9 months out of the year to begin with so why is it winter that we don't even have?????? ::Cough::: climate change ::: it's a hoax, of course
Going out by myself to a local coffeeshop to meet a new friend for an hour. I haven't been able to leave the house by myself for 3 or 4 weeks now since the vertigo came back!
I was literally the DARE poster child in my hometown - my anti-drug essay was posted in city hall and I had to read it in front of the whole school for an award ceremony. I made more than 1 boyfriend stop smoking weed if they wanted to date me.
This last month something terrible happened that...