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Hi All. Checking in. No change. It's been several weeks since I've heard anything from him. My texts (once a week now) go unanswered. My heart is still broken. I'm going through all the grief stages, denial, heartbreak, anger, and only acceptance by force. He was the best man Ive ever...

Thanks. For the perspective, the honesty and for the understanding. And for being here. I'll survive, I always have. This just hurts worse than anything I can recall. And I've had a pretty f**ked up time of it- I'm still suffering from childhood traumas of my own. I'm kind of numb I...

Yes he is now done. He says he is in a place that he cannot deal with me or my sadness or fears regardless of it being resultant of his ptsd. He says if I leave him alone we may be able to be friends in the future. This was the man I was going to marry and share the rest of my life with. I...

So the text he agreed to send came yesterday. It said "I'm still here. Nothing has changed". I responded, told him I loved him and thank you for texting and asked him to text me again in one week. He has not responded. I am lost. I don't understand how one can share a deep love, devote...

Thank you. I needed to hear that. Yes. It is the hardest thing I've ever done.

There is hope, right???!!?

Okay. We had the therapy. He needs space. He wanted nothing ever again - I broke a major trust with him, I emailed his therapist and he was infuriated because he said it was the only safe place he has in the world- I didn't understand or realize that he would react that way- I only wanted to...

Ugh. Yes, I've had a couple moments -Sunday actually- where he's happy to be with me- and then he goes into darkness again. It's a roller coaster. I've had to accept that and it's damn hard because I am pure emotion. To be raised up to heaven again and then dropped back to hell is--just...

Thank you Snowflakes and caligirl! It's makes a difference to know you're there. I will check out the group as well.

Okay so tonight I'm angry. I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm so sad! I barely get responses to my reaching out to him. He's so angry-at me! He has indicated that he will go to a therapy session with me to my therapist next week. At this moment I don't want to go. I don't want to hurt...

Hello Hooah84 First of all let me say THANK YOU, thank you for being out there on the front lines and protecting us!!! I too work for a state division. Mine is not law enforcement. We have an Equal Opportuniy Office, perhaps yours can help. Mine didn't though... Because workers comp is...

Stay strong!

Hi Maddi Thank you for responding. I'm so, so sorry that things are this way. My heart goes out to you. Thank you for being as strong as you are. I hope the pain is subsiding as time passes. Again, my heart goes out to you, you aren't alone out here. It hurts. Wishing you continued...

Hi Maddi Curious to know how things are going? You posted in December - how have these last couple of months been?

Do what feels comfortable for you. Good response to give yourself some time to digest this. The answer will come. Thumbs up!

Afterthought: I see a lots of posts here telling you to interact with this T and use this as a learning tool. I simply don't agree. This is obviously a sensitive issue. Many posts liken this to cameras being in schools or in public. This is not that kind of arena. This is a private...

Hi Links First of all you are NOT overreacting. A therapists office MUST be a place of trust and security, first and always. Trust is trust, and in a therapists capacity that is monumental. In my opinion, and if it were me, I would find another therapist ASAP. The relationship with this...

Wow! I just so happy and amazed that you found this glimmer of light! I really hope that this is the first step in a new direction. It's so hard sometimes. So hard. This gives me hope, I won't give up. Not sure why my sufferer has been in therapy for a year and a half with his VA therapist...

Faith! I am so glad!! There will be bumps in the road I'm sure but at least he is getting tools! I'm so happy for you!!! Yayyy!! ❤❤

Faith1234 How are you doing today? Wishing you hope! Hugs

And know that you are not alone. There is a world full of us out here, struggling and hurting and trying to find hope again. Just know: this isn't the end of the story. That is my motto right now. Hugs if you want them,peace and healing. ❤❤❤

Keep hanging in there. Spend as much quality time with your 9 yr old as you can. A dear friend told me something yesterday, she said "it's not the end of the story!", so I take that to mean there is hope. I'm sure it was tough when your Mom left and can't help you so your going to have to be...

Hello, Please know that you are not alone. PTSD is a very real illness and it manifests itself in terrifying ways. I am a survivor of childhood abuse as well. My panic attacks used to completely disable me too, and I really relate to the impending doom feeling. I used to feel like everyone I...

Also with regards to your 9 yr old, perhaps- and others please ring in here- you may want to explain that his father figure is sick, like with something like cancer in his mind, and that's it's hurting him and that his meanness is not because of your boy, it's because he is sick and hurting and...

Hello I just started here yesterday and received some great feedback and support as will you. It's helpful. From my own experience in the midst of a similar crisi- although not pregnant- I can tell you that my man has completely shut me out. My request for couples therapy was met with the...