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I honestly think that’s how I’m going to end up and tbh I’m fine with that if that’s what I’m happy with. Like there’s absolutely nothing wrong with not being into romance, if I don’t want it then I don’t want it.

Oh god yes I did. I was diagnosed when I was 15. I was abused for 15 years and now I’m 17, 18 in April. I thought I was gonna die before my 16th birthday yet I lived past then, and here I am now. Even before I was diagnosed I thought I’d just disappear before I became an adult somehow. I just...

i have reactive attachment disorder, which means it’s hard to emotionally connect to others in simple words. I agree with that, maybe I’ll do so when I get out of college. I’m a senior in high school and next year I’m going to college so I don’t think I can have a pet anytime soon. My family...

You’re right. I did all I could. He’s still with me and he won’t die as long as I’m here. I wish he could’ve done teenager stuff like getting his license and taking the SAT, but it just hurts to know he won’t get to. I just hope he’s at peace.

Yeah, I did. My psychiatrist kept it that way bc we actually increased it since 75 wasn’t doing enough for me, and my T said it’s because a lot is going on and aggravating depression symptoms most likely

Thank you for that. That literally made me cry. He was so young when he died. We knew each other since middle school. Out of all people, why him.

Hey, I also have CPTSD and have dealt with abuse from someone with antisocial personality. I’d be happy to support you on here :) although our struggles may not be the same and I may not completely understand how you feel, I support you

God I’m so sorry this happened to you. I know you’re not the one who was hit but I know how it feels to see someone in such acute condition and it’s honestly terrifying and can follow you for the rest of your life. Have you talked to anyone about this?

I think I used to take my Zoloft at night and it helped with sleep, yes. But then I began oversleeping so I switched to morning again haha :)

I saw someone online yesterday with his name and I spent an hour researching it hoping it was him alive. But then I realized he’s dead and he’s never coming back. I wish I was there towards the end but I wasn’t and I live with that everyday. I miss him every f*cking day. Every time I think of...

Yeah, those definitely are all things I’ll consider. Thank you so much :) I already do a lot of those but some of those gestures I don’t do so I’ll definitely try them !

Honestly you’re probably right. Like I guess I’m not alone which makes me feel slightly better. I think I’ll try to just not feel bad for not relating to friends in that way and kinda just work on me for a bit.

Believe me I’ve tried.my therapist has tried exposure therapy and legit I still just hate touch. The feeling just is bad to me idk why, I hate it and want to work on it. I’ve dated before for romance sake (I was sexually abused so that’s off the table) but even touching like cuddles was way too...

Honestly what I’m ok with is asking someone about their day. If it gets to like hand shakes then I get tense.

The thought of even letting someone touch me makes me super disgusted

I know, but I wish I could have crushes or relate to my friends when they like someone. I just can’t. I feel different from my friends.

I agree. I mean, it probably could work if you made some changes to the ideology, but I’m not sure of how it’d work in your circumstance.

It worked perfectly for me. Of course I’m not the same as I was before. I never will be. But it’s better than living with the burden of what they did to me everyday. I can live with the flashbacks and symptoms as long as this anger and hurt is gone.

I just can’t attach to people dude it’s so bad I’ve dated a lot of people, but every time they try hugging or kissing me I immediately pull away and break up with them. I’m not emotional at all either I just push them away and don’t tell them any trauma and then they want to know and I just...

You should be proud you’re still here, but please know it will get better in time. Just keep your head up. There’s people out there that care. Like us here, we care. You’re worth saving. Please take care.

Sometimes they’re too far gone. I lost my friend to suicide this year. He was so bright on the outside but I don’t think anything I could do or say could’ve made him stay, let alone anyone else.

I just feel super numb all the time? I don’t cry or feel sad (sometimes I feel sad, like really sad but usually I just feel super super numb) I did lose my friend this year to suicide and I do have a lot going on I’m on 100mg of Zoloft so that could be it maybe? Idk every day I just feel numb...

Usually nothing, but sometimes people ask if I’m ok because I’m shaking or I look pale, or I’m really quiet.

You absolutely were violated when that happened and I’m truly sorry for that. They shouldn’t have done that and yes, anything that is in your body without you saying yes is assault so don’t feel as if you aren’t allowed to feel this way, I know I also have days I question myself but you are...

Nope. What I meant was her expectations to not have a landlord who is abusive (in her perception) is realistic. I don’t agree much with what she wants to do and honestly I want them to communicate because both parties should. But the only person that can really challenge and change the...