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My shrink have me a benzo. And tonight will be the third night I am taking it. What do you think about it?

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I totally get it. I said that about aa. I was better than those losers. one of two is always good to start. It is a self defense mechanism to separate ourselves and place ourselves above others. Perhaps the alanon group in particular was victim oriented. But, no one is a loser they are just...

Thank you for such eloquently spoken words. You have an amazing writing talent and beautiful explanation. That most likely sounds about right. I am looking for kindred spirits.

I have been tortured, and yes you do help. And, yes you do help. I read some of your story on a post. It helped me feel better. A lot better. What I read was torture and I felt an overwhelming compassion that took the place of my pain. That was just a small part of your story. I was looking at...

Maybe. But I don't enjoy it. And most of the time I have tons of compassion, but it makes the pain stop. I just called the RCS line and sounded like a crazy person. When it hurts to much to quick to sharp that happens. The pain splays me mentally. It's been a few years now after the last "f*ck...

I don't know if this is healthy, and it's only been about a year, but knowing others have suffered, the same, more, or different than me seems to sooth me. When I read about other survivors with details of their trauma, and even if they are not doing good after, it soothes me. I feel calm, and...

No I think I am totally dumping all my sh*t in this site. Anytime it hurts I have started summoning here after I missed two day of work and had to call Rape Counseling Services' emergency line a bunch for a few weeks it calmed down but was still intense and deeply disturbing feelings and...

I think about my trauma so much. It was way better for a long time then I had flashback and said something of facebook after a surgery and got seriously abused by sick people the f*cks who do this with power and money use to hurt ones who may talk. Anyway, that is not important for this...

How I know for a fact is I lived through it. The news is triggering me badly that is correct. I am sorry but you do not have the right to say I did not live trough this with the same people. I just had more than Epstein around. I know for a fact as one of the victims dear. I do need a...

No and I need one. I am on a waiting list to get into Rape Services Counseling, and I don't know how long that will take. I need therapy obviously, and that is the only resource I have at this moment. I have medicare and they have few if any options where I live for help.

I hide it when I cry in the office. I hide it very well and try very hard to, but some days I break down and cry because of PTSD. I go in the bathroom or cry at my desk. I can't help it. It is the only thing today that made the psychical pain in the back of my chest stop hurting and it hurt so...

Right now its in back of my chest and it hurts badly. I wan't to cry but deep breaths is all I can do at work. Excruciating pain has been their from 17-now. I wasn't in excruciating pain in my 30's for a short while, but they tortured me again so it's back. I didn't start hearing voices though...

You are beautiful and I would like to thank you for it. I am writing the victims of Epstein today and telling them they had no choice honestly and that they are very much loved in the world. That they can help so many victims and already have. I am working 60 hours a week for 3 weeks more only...

I had an odd form of.dissociation that caused me to hear voices for over a decade because of childhood abuse and then outside home abuse because of underage nonsconsnsual pornography and bad man hurting me as a teenager. They have raped and pushed a lot of women in to suicide, a lot. I worked...

I had a large group of strangers sexually abuse me at my home as a teenager and my parents went cold about it and said their was nothing they could do. These strangers stalked me and made a sick game of it for the next 26 years. They are very wealthy and well connected like Epstein in fact I...

I deal with heart pain just about daily with my PTSD and I found this article on the subject. Emotional pain can cause bad chest pain like I feel all around my heart. I don't feel it in my actual heart but all around it. It hurts pretty bad sometimes. My PTSD has now taken a physical turn like...

I am on pristiq an antidepressant anti anxiety, and lamictal so I don't get supper depressed. I was on an antipsyhotic but they make my periods stop and my hair fall out, so I can't take them. I did a genetics test and I am not good with any of the antipsychotics on the market. The one that I...

Wow I understand. The first decade after they started I cried and asked myself why they hated me so much from 10 years old on... why people I never met wanted to sexually abuse me after they saw what sexual abuse had done to me. I can't tell you why we are hated, but at 38 4 years ago they tried...

I was tortured like so many on here. Mine was all psychological well most of it psychological. I find my serious flashbacks happen often where I cry as my mom puts it "I have never heard someone cry with so much despair and torment." it used to make her cry to hear me because it hurt me so bad...

Benzo's work, but for me often they didn't. I had someone tell me it looked like I was open and splayed on everything around me as a self defense mechanism. Like I had to know what was going on to keep myself safe, so I used my mojo to do it. That does cause problems. I meditated on my "hara...

So when I was 17 a bunch of guys from my school let me know I had grown up with them stalking me and I did not know it. They watched me live my life. These guys spit on me in Jr. High and bullied the shit out of me. I was constantly having to hide at school back then, or almost run off the bus...

I did the talking to dead people thing professionally for a while in a metaphysical shop, and on my own. I also had the voices do things like tell me what was going to happen in the future like scary weird stuff sometimes. Most were insults and odd things like like, but some odd voices would pop...

I have been on and off Benzo's and other drugs. Now I am only on Pristiq (anti depressant with anti anxiety) Lamictal (my shrink said it was just in case, so I don't get so depressed due to PTSD that I lose it), and now CBD during the day and marijuana at night. I was off the Marijuana for...

Who ever talked to me in high school was a light skinned black man. I stopped watching tv at 14 honestly for a few years. It wasn't him, but I've been seriously f*ck ed with and mentally assaulted so badly I can't make sense of any of it. Alice in wonderland, and what for. f*ck em I'm still...