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Yeah I was trying to avoid, and I did for a couple months, but it's gotten so bad I just needed relief. Definitely worth going to a doctor for. The medication she gave me just takes the edge off. I even managed to complete several tasks that were so overwhelming to me.

I had this yesterday. Felt like an elephant was sitting on me. I've felt this off and on before during periods of relationship stress. It's like a constant state of about to pass out. I went to a Dr. Yesterday. They gave me anxiety meds. I still feel the anxiety but I can breathe today and I...

Oh yeah, both my soon to be ex-wife and myself had this. She thought it was shingles for years, but it turned out be eczema. Drug stores sell it a cream that seemed to help her. My hands are almost raw from stress and my brother gave me a prescribed cream that works really well. It feels like...

That's a really good question and I'm not sure it's straightforward. I think at first I just decided it wasn't worth the guilt she was feeling compared to how triggered she would become and my guilt in feeling like I caused this. Talking, saying it's okay and just staying with her was helpful...

My wife had flashbacks for about a 5 year period and would consistently dissociate during and also have amnesia. It's different for everyone based on relationship history and trauma experience's, but as her spouse I did start seeing the patterns during intimacy. It took some practice but I...

I've been there too, currently going through that. Literally woke up and she completely changed and doesn't even know me and thinks I'm someone I'm not. It got really bad a year ago when covid hit and she disappeared. I went to a therapy for about 8 months. It honestly helped a lot in a...

Yeah I didn't mean to say it like that no she's not she's used it less and less the last couple years and I haven't wanted to get on here to interfere because I thought it was a really good place for her to vent type things out and interact with others. Last year I had a real breakdown in...

Mach 123 I find that very relatable and that's exactly how it's been for the last 20 years. This all happens so quickly and I had so many things in place and I never would have predicted this it's like something snapped in her. I've seen pictures and I don't even recognize her. She's kind of had...

Yeah it's just rough cuz she changed all of the passwords to our accounts and I'm staying at my mother's I mean the whole thing is ridiculous and the courts are all on my side and I just have to wait another 2 weeks before I'm allowed access to my house and if she doesn't do the assessment that...

Nope, good question though. I was venting the other day and used the mic function on my phone. Drinking hasn't really been an issue. It was for a bit last year, when I was going through a lot of shock and trapped in the house with covid lockdown, but I was able to dial it way back to normal...

My daughter's in good hands and I kept her safe. I think drafted this last week and forgot about it and accidentally posted it. It's barely readable. Sorry, I just had a existential melt-down last night. I'm just really stressed out, probably time to go back to therapy.

I'm actually very worried about my mental health because I don't even remember posting this yesterday. I just got on here and was surprised to see it holy hell! Yeah I'm not really worried about proving anything I don't need to I mean it's obvious it's just unbelievable

Oh this year's been a roller coaster. Haven't posted in a long time I have now realized I'm dealing with full psychosis! I was too close and couldn't see it. And this story is so insane I don't really want to get into it I don't have the energy. I'm just really struggling I'm safe my kids are...

I spent 7 months with the therapist I got in contact with Marlene Steinberg who created the DSM criteria on did to no avail. She doesn't trust anyone but me life has been a living hell this last year I haven't posted in a long time and I'm just at the end of my rope again I don't really care how...

Yeah things are really good with lots of clarity. Wife and I are best of friends again and just taking things one day at a time. Trying to have fun lots of dates romance cuddling talking. Keeping things light while processing all the new info. I have counciling tommorow. Things are looking up...

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Not drunk. Couple beers, benydryl. Just not been sleeping great. Yeah not great coping.

It's okay. I appreciate that. Now that she's home I feel calmer. The truth is she doesn't know a timeline and what's real and what's blending from childhood. It's something she'll have take to a specialist to help with her memories. I hadn't seen her in 40 days and I was seriously unraveling...

Yeah she's coming home to help me. Apparently I passed out in the yard last night and on the floor. I have no memory. I mowed the lawn and woke up on the front porch by my oldest daughter. Apparently she called her mom and their worried about me. I need my wife here. I'm not just her babysitter...

She remembered more. She has been repressing a serious trauma that she thinks happened a year after we started dating involving rape. Some person came in to the room and interrupted the two rapists. Something about the person who interrupted the rape reminded her of this more recent event of the...

Filling out paperwork for state licensing for a work promotion. Need to do it today. Been seriously procrastinating for two months. Hate paperwork.

Honestly I have appreciated all the perspectives and just writing this has helped me to form the important points I needed to share with my spouse. We had some really good talks yesterday, emotional and anger coupled with clearing the air and I think we're through the worst of it. I was pretty...

I appreciate everyone's advise. Gives me somethings to think about. I don't actually think she has cheated and neither does she, not really. She thinks she slept walked as thats how it feels to her. It's been a struggle. She's always been devoted to me, and deeply connected. The time period she...

Yes! The brick is worn! Thanks.

Thanks for making me feel welcome! I really appreciate it. My wife's been a member over a decade and I've kept my distance because I was afraid of interference. But I'm at an all-time low right now and I really appreciate the encouragement. She's had memories before that weren't real as well but...