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Turns out I've got some very patient and caring friends who constantly nag me when I do too much. They care, that's nice, but my dog and lovely wife 🥰 are my main support as the medics (or shrinks) won't do anything to improve my life. So there are good things in my life but never in my dreams.

Hi Antony. With two destroyed knees (doctors refusing to operate), one arm that does nothing as most of the nerves were severed from frag, I tried swimming for a laugh. Total disaster. Loved target shooting until faces started to appear in my sights. Digging the garden patch (4x4 meters) takes a...

Crazy K? The idiot doctors tried that (again) 6 months ago without reading my med notes. It took four of them to hold me down as Ketamine is looney toons juice for me.

In total a couple of miles a day max walking the dog. Bit difficult to do more on two walking sticks and crushed knees. Not forgetting my very energetic, mischievous, friend to everyone, power packed, GSD (attached to me on a belt and long lead).😉

Location, UK. Veteran. So, this has been building for a few months now. I already live in chronic pain from old injuries but, with increasing insomnia, and night terrors, I manage to get 2-3 hours of sleep most nights. Taking the poisons called Drugs. They all pretty much useless as I have...

That's the nice bit. YOU KNOW the lads will understand.

Thank you for the feedback. I'm always cautious, not wanting to upset others.

Remembrance day. Another year, and the list of those I knew, remember, and honour, gets longer. It's their stories and loss that stings as I am the last man standing from my team and that feels wrong. I have been told that is survivors guilt. Aka "Why them and not me?" My lovely wife will...

Sorry again. New AmazonTablet that lies to me when I login to just about anywhere! Next fix? Trashcan!!!!!!

PTSD'd Combat Vet. Doing what you do, BP etc. Thought that would help me. Some relief from thinking the worse but I broke the cardinal rule of looking after yourself. I told the doc I was doing that. He reviewed the logbook, and I got a list of "this needs investigation" emails. So now I just...

Hi Evie. Yep, RAF / REME vet (don't ask why). My GP's? useless. (one male, one female) both had no idea who to refer me too. The male version sending me for a dementia evaluation. Which found . . . I had PTSD! Ultimately, I ended up with the useless NHS Op.Courage. No help for nightmares...

This is not going to be a good post but I hope helpful. About my new best friend that might not be. You know how you can get a feeling that something isn't quite right or too good to be true? My wife picked up on it as she reads me like a open book. So today she "casually" asked, "You have...

Hi folks. Quick update as I've been "slightly distracted" lately after finding a buddy I served with. He found religion in the form of an ex-Légion étrangère priest with psych skills to help him and I'm now talking to his priest via Zoom. Nice bit? No language difficulties (i.e. he understands...

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Yep, I agree. Self help is best but it also helps that I have a good woman looking after me, and a very intellent GSD.

Two things. 3 NHS "therapists". All had the same things in common (apart from no life skills), they were all Gen Z and trainees. No. 4 did have a qualification though, hypnotherapy. Only he couldn't use it as all contact was via zoom. LOL. P.E.T is what I'm looking for. That sorted me out for...

I'm done with the UK's NHS contractors BS mental health tick list CBT as it had zero relevance to what was attacking me when I'm asleep. Despite me pleading for them to concentrate on the nightmares. End result? The anger I had suppressed for years is back! It wasn't until a USvet buddy asked me...

A tiny rave. If it's possible to get meet stupid twice, I just have. Talking to a new doctor today, following a "no fault found" CT scan result after my sometimes overloaded brain cell knocks me out. His comment? "Ptsd cannot cause you to black out!" I was thinking, OMG, why am I even talking...

Thanks for the reply Friday. Bad Lt? ROTFL. I've had a few of those and upwards into the thin air of staff officer brains. Trust for me is a tricky thing though as I never accept first impressions, just those with time served. So kids trying to fix me ain't going to happen. However. Just because...

Hi. I'm a vet, suffering from combat PTSD over the last 40 years. When first treated, I was treated by what is now called PET (Prolonged Exposure Therapy). It worked with only a few minor 'tilts' over the years. Those tilts were controlled by the foreign hospital's coping mechanisms. Until it...

I'm a combat vet who retired from service in the 1980's and went humanitarian. Hearts and minds, helping unbelievably nice but destitute level people to survive. Until a false war struck and ethnic cleansing started. It was brutal, and our team worked 24/7 for 6 months picking up the pieces...

I lived with PTSD for 40 years. After initial treatment I was OK with life. Until 2 years ago when social media and the Internet re-lit the fires. Now? The demons are back and playing with my mind in my sleep. Then I asked for help 🤣, and found no one listened anymore.