Recent content by 87ofme

Hello NightSky, I have been dealing with severe PTSD most of my life. I've been disabled with it since 1989. I have experienced many levels of disassociation from the mild staring off into space, to wondering who in the hell dressed me this morning in this getup and how did I get to where I am...

I remember what it was like to be where you are now. You could be in a room full of people and you'd still feel lonely and as if horrible things were tattooed on your forehead for all the world to see. At the same time you desperately try to hide your insecurities and percieved flaws. One thing...

Lucycat sounds like me. I was diagnosed with PTSD severe and delayed back in 1989 and Multiple Personality Disorder also my depression scores were so bad they were off the charts. I disassociated to the point where I just didn't wake up...for days. One of my Drs came into the hospital room and...

Ah Transference! This is a tough one! I was taught that transference is when we transfer our feelings onto another person. In my case my ex husgand would feel inferior so he'd say/do things to make me feel bad about myself so he could feel good about himself. He was a jerk so as I got well I...

I really liked what Change had to suggest. I'm pretty old school here so many of the abreviations you use I'm not familiar with. The things that helped me were: Treat yourself like you'd treat your own best friend. Talk to yourself like you'd talk to your best friend in everyday walk of life as...

Yea I deal with that one too. I got extremely mad at mine once recently and said the worst thing I've ever said to another human being. I told him that he'd better hope he did not get into heaven cause if he did, I was going to be standing there at the pearly gates with a lightening bolt to...

It looks like no one uses this thread anymore either. Kinda sad because this is my big issue here lately. Sad

Wow, I guess no one reads this one anymore.

I'm maried to a 100% disabled Vietnam Vet who has PTSD and pain too plus he has heart issues which he refuses to address thru exercise or diet. My guy also tries to put all of his healthcare issues and needs onto me which is not right. He wants to advocate all responsability onto me. As in if he...

Have you ever thought of disassociation as nothing more than a tool...like a hammer is to a carpenter disassociation is to a victim of abuse. You can use disassociation in that same way once you learn to control it. These grounding or relaxation exercises are steps toward learning to control it...

I made my husband a home made cherry pie.....he has a heart condition and is a ass. LOL He always knows when I'm mad at him. Sometimes I think he makes me mad just so he can have the pie he knows he's not supposed to have. Ya gotta watch out for those 7 deadly sins. Then a storm came in so I...

When you wear a nut that has no threads on a chain around your neck as fashion jewlery because it reminds you of YOU

I was diagnosed with MPD; Severe Depression; PTSD severe and delayed back in 1990 and 1 reason they added the MPD was due to my journaling. My hand writing would go along in cursive and then in the middle of a word or sentence I would PRINT a few letters or words and then go back to the...

Wow! I wish my husband could have read this back in 1989!!! I probably would have gotten better much faster and our marriage might have survived! Excellent stuff my friend!

I am so glad I found this thread and site! Thank you all for sharing your experiences so I don't feel like a freak! Like many of you I can't filter out noise so I get a bombardment of ALL noise including the truck on the highway half a mile away! The cricket that never shuts up! The dog...