Recent content by Anniebananie

Thank you so much for sharing your story. Just knowing that you understand and acknowledge that this situation is heart wrenching helps so much. I spend so much mind-time second guessing my reaction to things...I must be over reacting, I'm too emotional, everyone else in my situation would be...

I'm in a conundrum because it was my mom and brother who had me committed. Mom left the next day without visiting, my brother visited once (they came down from Portland). We barely talk about it and what happened to me there haunts me every day. I haven't told them much details, they don't ask...

Oh my god, I was just watching a documentary on a woman who survived a stroke and was wondering if maybe I had one after my psychotic break. It's like having to learn how to think again. Everything seems so labored, things that used to be automatic now take tremendous energy. I'm never quite...

All you have to do is follow the worms.

I am 50 and my legs are covered in scabs from picking ingrown hairs. I also have scars on my face from picking at pimples. In the last few years, I've picked my face so badly during stressful times that I looked like I was in a car accident or a fight. I try to stop, but I get into this...

Why doesn't my family check in on me? I love the smell of my dog's ears. Maybe I have cancer and I can be done. Who lives through all this? I don't matter to anyone.

I hear you. Especially the medication roller coaster. I have been having weird panic attacks the last few months because my shrink never fills my medication in time so I keep going cold turkey. Do you have any pets? I have a little dog and I know for a FACT I would not be here if it weren't for...

Yeah, I lost my therapist end of Feb. because the only place I could afford an apartment was in another county and he was paid for by the county health. I've been here almost 4 months and am working on taking care of myself. Leaving the house to walk my dog, making dinner, setting everything up...

Last June I became homeless, and spent the first 3 weeks in a shelter in Berkeley. I have to say it wasn't as bad as I had feared, but is very regimented and run a bit like a prison or the army. You have to stay out from 9am to 5pm on weekdays, but can stay all day on the weekends. They served...

Thank you so much, everyone. I burst into tears, reading your messages and knowing that I have finally found a place full of familiars who understand. Big breath, and carry on.

This is a really long story...I don't know where else to put it and my distrust and noncommunication with my mom and brother torments me every day. I don't know what to do and am terrified that my mom will die (she is 84) before I can trust her or even see her again. I really appreciate that I...

I did this too, after being raped. I was 14, so on top of the rape, I was labeled a slut. For years, and really, to this day (I am 50) I disassociate during sex and become frighteningly attached. For me, it was like what Casey said, I was compelled to become a predator. It never even seemed like...

I'm in the same boat as you. I got that letter and am terrified that they will cut off my benefits before I am able to get and keep a job. I have a really hard time leaving the house and my days consist of walking my dog around the neighborhood and reading and listening to the radio. I am quite...

My parents separated when I was toddler, and when I was six, my mom met my stepfather and we moved across country to live with him. I saw my dad once a year until I was 10, when he moved across country to be closer to me. From age 6-8, I was molested by my best friend's 12-year-old brother. My...