Recent content by Ariadne

*hugs and comfort* @Friday

Ambien. In some ways it was more destructive to my life than heroin. Mostly though because of the people who were around. Most of it I really don't remember, but it's kind remembering a dream, things can remind you of bits and you can start to piece together something of what happened. I...

yeah, it's for ADHD, it's called vyvanse. It's a slow-release chemical that the body changes into amphetamine, so if you don't have ADHD it's a bad idea, but since I do, it helps me so much!

just to follow up....I discussed the issue with my new T and she agrees with me; I was not stalking nor harassing. But thanks anyway. Turning over my feelings on the matter to the new t has helped me immensely to let go and start moving on.

lol....that's so not the point! I'm not seeking excuses for behavior I already said was INAPPROPRIATE. Hello, I've owned that! And I've already said I AM leaving her alone, having nothing to do with her, etc. Done. My point was the question that if she did NOT express her boundaries, did NOT...

thanks, I actually don't want her back at all. I have a new therapist that I am working with. I am working on healing myself and going back to school and making pragmatic changes in my life to avoid the insomnia and other issues. another thing I wanted to clarify for others: when I said she...

I appreciate all the responses and to much, I do agree. I do want to just clarify a little bit... I presented things here in such a way as to try to avoid presenting my opinions on things, which includes how I feel about all of it. I only mention how I felt at the time. For one thing, she...

I've been trying to write this for a week, but every time I'd open the page and start thinking about what I needed to say, I'd feel overwhelmed and just go back to bed. First though I want to say that I'm immensely grateful for everyone here. Reading posts has helped me so much with so many of...

yeah, I'm sorry it was what I had on hand at the time. It's true there is no one kind of gendered brain, but I wouldn't agree that it means there isn't brain gender. Actually even genetically humans have many biological sexes and at every point during natal development in which gender is...

I had a time when I wanted to be held by my therapist (from a few years ago) but then even in my mind my infant self came out and wanted to nurse! :( I was very disturbed by those thoughts as well as imagining myself as an infant in her arms. Later after therapy ended and my child self...

Actually, having taken not only Research Methods in Psychology as well as graduate level courses in Biopsych, and having an emphasis in gender identity and having been an intern at a reproductive and sexual medicine clinic, I'm pretty familiar with what sorts of research there has been on brain...

"The study concludes, “Our results show that the white matter microstructure pattern in untreated (pre-transition) FtM transsexuals is closer to the pattern of subjects who share their gender identity (males) than those who share their biological sex (females).” What’s interesting to note about...

I'm in my 40's and I'll be straight-forward, I can at times be a bit promiscuous. It's not an acting out thing, it's a I know what I want, don't want and I'm not about to play games about it. Sometimes I have a high sex drive and I don't always want a serious relationship to go along with it...

Yeah, I have found some good articles online and I did have a great session with my new T. And we did talk about kind of my regret about how it could have been handled. I generally try to avoid "should-ing myself down" or indulging "if only's" but as I am planning a releasing ritual today, it...

thank you. I actually have been planning a ritual of releasing for some time now and just fyi, when I say I want closure now, I no longer mean the session kind I was seeking last year, I'm actually talking about finding a peace with what happened. I was thinking this morning about how I...