Recent content by beaneeboo

My person opinion on this is that sexual trauma at the hands of a pre pubescent child has to be seen through a different lens to trauma caused by adult to child. Regardless of the age of the person doing the sexually harmful behaviour, and regardless of intention and regardless of whether they...

Just wanted to say this makes complete sense to me and I understand what you've been experiencing. I also started cutting in 94. Did it off and on for years then haven't for a long time. But the urge to do it? Jeez that's been super duper strong on and off at various points, including recently...

Yes i really get this... love your analogy ... and it's something that's been an issue for me my whole life...I have lived by keeping score of everything and learning about things in way more depth than other people... my amnesia has made parts of me do that because of being so scared about...

I think you've had some really great replies on your post already... so not sure i can add much more... but i think the advice around working backwards from the symptoms you have, rather than trying to objectively judge whether you're experience was COCSA or not, is very good advice... because...

I think definitely trust your gut on this...I know that can be hard in the situation you're in... and when cptsd is a big part of the picture... there's not much more road to go down with this psychiatrist if you consistently question whether they are doing right by you or not... After many...

That's a good idea I'll try that... I've also realised that adult me gets very into trying to understand the theory of things like new therapy approaches, I think to try to get round some parts feeling like they are going to have something done 'to' them (as opposed to willingly engage)... but...

I hear you! For adult me, I'm almost fed up of this response now but it's so incredibly strong, like a hard armour. So I'm having to learn to respect it. Which has in turn reduced the critical voice and SI reactions and SH. So I'm really hoping that DBR will be permitted by all of my...

🐔 🐥 🍗 🤣🤣 This is interesting because my T has been reluctant to do EMDR with me because of my system not tolerating much... anything around memories or talk/ expectation of trauma talk just sets off a really protective response which blocks everything and makes me ill again So i have give...

This is exactly where my adult and teenage head is at when I reach my limit I think i can say this to him actually. If i frame it as a request for the future as opposite 'I'm a bit annoyed / upset because..' It may be easier. Not easy but manageable. Thank you. It's so helpful to hear an...

Thanks @Calm in the chaos ... that's helpful hearing your opinion...I think of i told him he would make an effort but we've had these types of convos before and it works for the most part but sometimes he slips on things. The further we get into therapy the more I appreciate the fact I've built...

It's definitely this. He's even said as much himself and says sorry when it's appropriate. And the amount of time we've had in the therapy relationship has definitely helped because this type of issue before would be difficult for everyone. Now i have learnt that even Ts can't be perfect and I...

Woah! What is this sorcery?! Thank you for sharing your experience... so i guess it's targeting the nervous system and deeper brain structures without the person even having to discuss their trauma... very different approach to traditional therapy

Hey, I've been away for a while 😅 but I'm back with a question! I hope everyone is well... So I'm in my 3rd year with my T (specialist Psychologist for DDs). I would say atm things are going OK. Obviously the nature of the work is about relational difficulty for a lot of it and the therapy...

It's interesting to hear your experience @Freddyt ... esp the part where you said it only took a couple of sessions to move through quite a lot... I started this post some time back obviously but we're only just getting to attempt it for a second time next week (DBR I mean)... my system hasn't...

It's not foolish @Rose White ... you deserve and have the right to hope for that with a partner... alot depends on the partner of course.. but in terms of yourself, you have the right to want better things in your life, in your relationships and you deserve the right to have that belief...