Recent content by beaneeboo

Thank you for such thoughtful replies...i really appreciate it... I've had a challenging day but will write tomorrow as there are things in your replies I want to respond to... Hope everyone is having a n ok time of it

Thank you @Sues @Sideways @Movingforward10 and @Mach123 Thinking about it from what you've all said, it think there are many layers... mandatory reporting is of course a huge one, correct.... the fear of the consequences for some parts, many of which i probably don't know, is big.... Part of...

2.5 years into intensive trauma therapy for dissociative disorder. I am getting memories surfacing in different forms. I've understood trauma processing is the second stage for this type of therapy. But there is a HUGE resistance to me and my parts sharing anything with T. I've shared little...

For years i searched for someone to give me the answer as to whether the COCSA part of my experience was abuse or not... it did me so much damage not being able to look at my own situation and trust my inner gut that it was (after many years of therapy and learning how to look at my experience...

My gut reaction is from your description, is no, it's not COCSA, but I also think it depends on what sense you make of this experience (because only you know the whole back story of the dynamics in your household between you and your brother growing up)..... I wonder whether in asking the...

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I haven't read the responses to your post so sorry if I'm repeating what's been said... The agonising spiral of was it true or did it not happen and I'm making it up....eggghhh ... for me, this has been one of the most damaging parts of the effects of my trauma - even if i can't always...

I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time...i really wanted to read all your post but I have tu be honest it's too much information for my brain tu process...i can't concentrate that long...i just wanted to say I've heard some of your story and I'm sorry...

I love my amnesic brain...i didn't know i started this thread! I have heard this before... have you taken it in the morning?

Well done for this. Maybe you could follow it up with suggested reading and resources for the service to learn about trauma informed care... Apart from anything, this practitioner sounds dangerous. What if that info about the meds you can have a severe reaction to hadn't been really...

My person opinion on this is that sexual trauma at the hands of a pre pubescent child has to be seen through a different lens to trauma caused by adult to child. Regardless of the age of the person doing the sexually harmful behaviour, and regardless of intention and regardless of whether they...

Just wanted to say this makes complete sense to me and I understand what you've been experiencing. I also started cutting in 94. Did it off and on for years then haven't for a long time. But the urge to do it? Jeez that's been super duper strong on and off at various points, including recently...

Yes i really get this... love your analogy ... and it's something that's been an issue for me my whole life...I have lived by keeping score of everything and learning about things in way more depth than other people... my amnesia has made parts of me do that because of being so scared about...

I think you've had some really great replies on your post already... so not sure i can add much more... but i think the advice around working backwards from the symptoms you have, rather than trying to objectively judge whether you're experience was COCSA or not, is very good advice... because...