Recent content by bitterfight_

I apologize for coming off harshly, but please understand where I am coming from. I understand the phrase you've taught your daughter, however I am not your daughter. I spent 3 years backing down from confrontation, and taking the abuse from peers at school without igniting it. People found it...

@Pencil, I supppose I worded it incorrectly. I grabbed the stereo so that he could leave, and I could do it myself. I never intended it as an invitation for a physical altercation, so isn't that biased to assume I was looking to fight with him? No, slapping is never "allowed", but neither is...

@Pencil, for your c and b bullets, were you referring to my behavior, or my parents behavior?

Unfortunately, the only people I have are a few friends. I'm thinking of doing that right now, because it's the only option that seems open. I don't have a full-time job, as I am in Uni most times from 8 am until 8 pm, thus leaving it almost impossible to work full-time, or even enough to move...

Hey guys... I just got home from vacation, and on the 18th, me and my parents got into a MASSIVE fight. This is how it happened: I don't like sleeping in the dark and quiet because of my PTSD that's caused by severe bullying (loads of physical assaults, torment, basically assault). Anyways, I...

@Sarah2732, ohhhhh alright. :) It's okay haha, and yes, I'm not returning, I've decided on that. I plan on emailing my psychiatrist and asking to be placed with someone else, and if not, I will be returning to my old trauma therapist, even if I only get 30 minute sessions with her because I...

I've never thought of them in that way... Interesting..

As do I. It's irritating because it's like, well you go through what I went through, and then tell me how you feel. I don't understand how it's a "fair" question to be asked, at all. Nobody would ask this to a rape victim, or a soldier, or an abuse victim, but yet it's acceptable to ask that to...

@Laura 2, that's my fear. I don't need to continually be made to feel bad! That's insane. It's so wrong that we get asked why these things happen to us, and our brain tries to justify these sick people's actions, but it really is just crazy-making. In your own words, "it's just wrong to target...

Good for you!! Today I had a panic attack when there were two ladies in front of me at the outpatient clinic having a heated argument. I stepped away from the situation, did some deep breathing and muscle tensing-relaxation exercises, and came back to it. Still felt nauseated and I was severely...

@Jane.l , trust me, I wanted to deck him. He noticed how angry I was because he was like "you seem very angry about what happened to you" and I was like "I am" and then he said "you seem to be very traumatised by the bullying" and all I could think was - no shit? I have PTSD. I know my GP wrote...

I'm seeing a new therapist (scratch that, he's a social worker) for my PTSD and TRD. Today was my first meeting with him, and we spent most of the session talking about cutting, and I didn't think it was in a healthy way. I understand he's providing information on why people usually do this, but...

Today I can't let go of the fact that a few days ago, my dad coldly made a joke in regards to my appearance. I came out with new makeup on and I said "soo... what do you think?" and he literally said "wow! a miracle worker haha". After explaining and stressing how this affected me with my dad...

I've been away for awhile because I've also been recently diagnosed with MDD (TRD) on top of the PTSD, and I'm now in a clinical study on depression and doing intensive therapy. This is going to be a very general response to all of you @Hashi , @jmni , @Laura 2 I was very triggered the other...

@Hashi - The psychiatrist is separate from my therapist. Actually I'm kind-of in between therapists right now, and only have a social worker acting as a psychologist, and he's nice but I don't like him, nor do I trust him really. I don't really trust any of them, since I only just got a referral...