Recent content by bluelicorice

I definitely relate; I have this feeling quite often too. I go through regular periods of terror that everyone is going to abandon me (and it will be my fault!). Not only my therapist, but also the small handful of people who care about me. No amount of reassurance from them ever makes the fear...

I googled the exact definition of productive and the first result was, "producing or able to produce large amounts of goods, crops, or other commodities". Based on that definition, I would have to say no, I am not productive, because I don't do large amounts of anything on any given day, that is...

@Speak, thanks for the recommendation, I'm going to check it out! :)

Good luck! :)

Just heard on the news this morning that Canada was officially the coldest country in the world for the month of March. Cold again this morning of course, but its supposed to warm up to almost not freezing today haha.

@Al_Lurker, thanks for the wishes and the book recommendation. I'll definitely look for this one too. I appreciate all the suggestions I can get!

Thank you both for your replies. Apparently this topic is a lot harder for me than I thought, because after writing I couldn't bring myself to come back here yesterday to read anything! In any event, thanks for confirming about foster care likely being the cause of the issue. @Lucycat, thanks...

I'm grateful for my heat working and the plastic covering on the windows, because it continues to be very cold outside. I'm grateful I got groceries and ran errands yesterday when it was warmer, so I don't have to go out today. I'm grateful for my cheeky, attention demanding cockatiel who...

Argh cold as **** yet again! -19 C (7 F) for a high today. Tell me again. Spring is when exactly??

While this is not the official reason for my diagnosis of PTSD, I was orphaned at a young age and grew up in several foster care situations and children's homes. I don't recall there being any outright physical or sexual abuse, but there was always a sense of not belonging and not being special...

Yes that's a good point, I guess you're right. I'm remembering now that when I first starting losing, I lost 12 pounds in 2 weeks. After that my weight loss has been steady but has slowed down considerably. Haha thanks for the laugh! This is so true of me also! :)

Ugh yeah, I totally get feeling like a failure or like you're imposing on someone else. :( I'm glad you have those people who have offered though; I really hope it all works out for you!

@cherryblossom, wow, that's a lot to lose in 6 weeks! I was overweight too when I started losing (not anymore though!) and I also used to eat for comfort and love food. Its a strange transition. Honestly I wish I could back to normal eating and lose the weight in a more healthy fashion. Good...

That's a good way to look at it! And you're absolutely right; I became interested in reading Ender's Quintet after seeing Ender's Game, the movie. :)

I know right?! I am also very capable of reading things that are far more sophisticated, but lately my attention span and general energy levels are a lot lower. I find the easy books so relaxing. I just finished Ender's Quintet, the five-book series beginning with Ender's Game, for the same...