I Feel Everyone's Sick Of Me :(

[Sally sue]

I just saw my T and I've been seeing her for about 3 1/2 years, I feel like she's sick of me and hearing about my stupid issues.

I'm also not seeing her for 2 weeks which triggers my abandonment issues, and makes me feel more like she's tired of seeing me :(.

This has come up before and she assures me this is not the case, but I can't help panicking.

Does anyone else feel this way? How do you make the feeling/fear stop?!

Sally Sue

 

[billie]

It's hard when these are the only people we can trust. Yes I do get those feelings too, I literally loose it when I cannot see them. Remember you still have us hun.

 

[greenleaf]

Maybe keep telling yourself that she said it's not the case, and try to remember that it can take quite a while to believe something like that if you'd been around very untrustworthy people a lot? (Quite a while, for me, has meant really quite a while, though there are layers of trust like an onion I think.)

 

[Sally sue]

Ya, trust is very hard for me :(. I will continue to practice trying to believe her :). I'm just so darn dependent on her and her guidance and support! I'm not accustomed to relying on others to help me and not turn on me or abandon me. I wish I weren't like that .

Thanks for all your feedback and support!

 

[Justmehere]

I feel like this often and much. I don't have any advice, just wanted to say you are not alone in it and that we are not sick of you! not one bit! :hug:

 

[Sally sue]

Thanks Justmehere! You made me smile :).

 

[bluelicorice]

I definitely relate; I have this feeling quite often too. I go through regular periods of terror that everyone is going to abandon me (and it will be my fault!). Not only my therapist, but also the small handful of people who care about me. No amount of reassurance from them ever makes the fear go away for long.

Recently my therapist recommended a technique to combat this. Its worked a little bit for me, when I can actually concentrate enough to try it. My therapist said that when I am with someone who cares about me and we are having a pleasant, positive time together, I should look at their face, especially their eyes, and note what I see there. If I see love in their eyes, care for me from their words or actions, I should try to remember those positive moments. Then, when I'm feeling anxious about losing the person, concentrate on the memory of their caring face, their positive words to me, etc, using specific, real examples. I tried this recently with one friend who was there for me the last time I was in hospital. When she first came to visit, she briefly held my hand and looked into my eyes. I could see in her eyes that she cared. I held on to that memory and then brought it up in my mind later on when I was worried about her rejecting me.

Anyhow, the technique does seem to be helping me a little, and apparently gets easier with practice, so I thought I'd share. :)