Recent content by BlueWeepingRose

I can finally talk about the abuse without feeling upset or feeling as if it's my fault. I'm really proud of myself.

When people always make it about themselves and try to get all the attention from others, not allowing others to speak.

Right now I'm grateful for my dog Ruby, every morning she gives me sweet kisses and just looking at her gives me so much joy. She's the sweetest dog ever! 🥰

Right now I'm feeling rather peaceful, music always seems to make me feel safe and secure. :)

Thank you for listening. Sometimes I feel like I'm not heard and it makes me feel alone. I'm glad there's someone out there who truly understands. For so long I used to cry myself to sleep and get horrible nightmares. Thanks for writing to me. I'll continue going to my T and putting my needs...

It's been almost seven years now and I'm still affected by what happened to me. I truly trusted him and he was my boyfriend. He SA me when I was sleeping. I loved him and I never thought that this would happen to me. I feel disgusted and ashamed by it. 😞 It's hard for me to enter into a new...

Last night my body was shaking as I was talking to my Mom about my father, and the SA that's he's done to me when I was a child. I didn't want to tell her about the shakes, because she's stressing out a lot as it is. Does your body shake when you talk about trauma? This is the first time it's...

I noticed nobody really responded to my thread. =\

Earlier I was feeling pretty down and crying, but I'm feeling a lot better now.

In the past yes, I will say I was trying to push myself harder on the symptoms that I was going through and try to push the process to heal. Now though, I'm focusing more on self-care and trying to take it easy. The more I tried to push myself, the more exhausted I felt inside. That's what I...

It still affects me deeply. I'm so glad I'm in therapy and my therapist has been helping. The more I talk with her about it, the I can see how abusive my ex-boyfriend was, but I still have guilt and shame over the SA, there are times when I feel disgusting and I can't look at myself in the...

This has been long overdue but I thought the need to mention this before I forget. This past weekend I broke down and was sobbing. It was so severe that my body was shaking and I couldn't stop crying. It just kept coming and coming. Things are improving with my therapist, but I can tell...

Thank you for responding to my thread. I was so confused as to why I was sleeping so much. My parents, we're worried and that it was depressing but I felt so worn out from talking about everything that has happened to me. I can tell I'm improving though and this makes me feel hopeful.

I've been opening up more to my T about everything. My last session was the other day. Today I slept halfway through the day. It could be because I'm so worn out by everything. My PTSD symptoms are getting better. This is something I'm noticing the more I open up about what happened to me with...