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Sometimes I feel so silly because my behaviors in therapy are often so child-like. Does anyone else have experiences like this? I have a child-like love for my therapist....so innocent & pure. When I first discussed my feelings for her I explained that it felt so WRONG. The feelings I have for...

I had been seeing my T for quite some time when she finally let her guard down & we both cried together. I think it was that very moment when I truly began to trust her. I saw her as a human & saw how much she really cared. We have made leaps & bounds together since that moment.

I didn’t recognize (or didn’t want to recognize) my symptoms for over 10 years after I left my abusive situation. Just sucked it up & lived with it. I knew something wasn’t right but kept thinking there had to be a medical reason...my heart, my thyroid, etc. Even after being diagnosed there was...

I kind of realized that too @EveHarrington after I posted that comment...I guess I didn’t really ask for any advice or any specific response. I just thought it was kind of funny that a dream could put things into perspective so well for me. I also thought it was funny that the setting of the...

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I had an awful dream last night. One of those dreams that felt SO real. I woke up with tears streaming down my face & the tears haven’t stopped all day. I dreamed about my family. Actually, I shouldn’t call them my family...maybe just label them bio-mess! My mom, who passed away some time ago...

My T didn’t “get it” at first I don’t think. We hung in there with each other & now I don’t think there is another human being on this earth who knows my heart & mind as well as she does. Once that bond happened & we both let down our guard that’s all it took. Sometimes the connection doesn’t...

Yoga has yielded similar results for me. Just being mindful of my posture & learning to stretch out & “take up space” in the world. Like you, I have spent my whole life trying to go unnoticed & take up as little space as possible. I tend to sit Indian style/legs crossed or under me with my arms...

Thank you @frieda! Very good pointers. Yes I remember last time leaving the office so dissociated & disconnected that I drove the opposite direction of my house without even realizing it!

Thank you! Here’s hoping I don’t chicken out before next session! Fingers crossed I can make progress this time!

Yes she said I could try again when I feel ready. I think I’m there. :confused:

It’s been over a year since I’ve tried EMDR. Last time was kind of a disaster, I dissociated so bad & then would go home & be a complete mess with so many memories surfacing. Nightmares & panic attacks increased. I’ve been working closely with my therapist since then. I feel like I have tools...

Acts of genuine kindness. Beautiful. Brings me to tears & gives me hope in humanity.

When I told my therapist I had feelings for her & felt ashamed she told me that all of the feelings I was having were completely NORMAL & nothing to be ashamed of. It was other people who took advantage of those feelings in the past & turned it into something to be ashamed of. Not my fault. &...