Recent content by C.J

I replied to you r message on my profile. I could also meet in Newmarket, but Alliston is best on Wednesdays. Yeah I know there is not a kot of chatter on this thread.

I am thankful for the friends no matter how far away I can call and they remind me that I am a unique human being and that there is a good life to live.

the past three weeks have been difficult. I lost my Dad to cancer 5.5yrs ago and even though he was abusive when he was depressed he was really good the last 6 years of his life and became someone I could talk to and be comforted by. I always miss him but I miss him more now with the realization...

I have been struggling a lot lately with new flashbacks where I can feel my abuser touching me and inside of me. it is so scary and real that I don't know what to do. Any ideas on how to get this under control?

I miss the companionship I had in my now broken relationship.

Is this group still meeting in 2014?

Today I am thankful for the support my Mom has given me during this rough time in my life.

Last June after my second stay in hospital my fiance broke off our engagement because I didn't tell him about the sexual abuse that happened to me. He doesn't believe me because it was a mutual friend and he says I should of told him when it first started happening.... I was in denial and didn't...

It has been a very long 8 months since the flashbacks from my sexual abuse started. It is so frustrating because they happen so often, even in class and I miss parts of the lecture.... Any tips/ tricks to figuring out my triggers?

I don't know why,but this quote made me laugh sooo hard. Thanks for the laugh.

Today I am missing two of the most important men in my life. One being my Dad who passed away three years ago this Sunday. And the other being my fiance, Alex. Alex is my rock and my foundation. I met him at the lowest point in life, when my ptsd symptoms started. Alex didn't run away, he has...

I have no feelings today, its more than numbness..

How am I feeling: cold, anti-social, alone, agitated...

Welcome ScubaC, this is a great site. How long did it take for you to find a new T? I am still on a wait list for CAMH.... but that's a whole other story.....

Thank-you, the cup analogy helped me to better understand why I have been an emotional roller coaster.