Recent content by Carmen1

lol i just realized he wasnt talking about actual alcohol therapy, but the concept of "hang over derived from therapy" lol damn I wonder why i immediatly assumed he was talking about getting drunk as therapy? maybe bc that was my usual MO? and then i woud get hung over and just chug an alka...

Im begginning to feel wxactly what you mention. Im my authentic self more tha every and that tastes good! because i am so much more aware. When we are in avoidance of the past, i think we also avoid our selves in general, the presnet moment...ackowleding brings presence, understanding...I also...

we are social creatures, we actually do need positive human contact. Hence why i am even working on my pstd, bc i am good at meeting people but terrible at establishing something that will last. When people look for me I feel harassed, i dont like to get invites etc, then i get bored and wonder...

I will tread carefully then...i think therapy is good, as it will help clean up...but its equally important to find the right therapist like you mention. Thanks for warning me <3

yes but did get into a facebook fght with someone i barely know. what bothers me is im not sure if im justified when i attack people. I feel like my antennas dont work well or i overreact. I just really dont want to be disrespected, but i feel i do it wrong and then people are ust like whoa ...

Seems like through hard work you managed some issues. How did you manage to convince your wife to change? im curious. Im barely beginning therapy. Im guessing my body language gives it away and working on it, but what i noticed is talking about it and being open created some changes on a deeper...

thank you guys. Wedell pointed me to the thread of stuffed animals (SO good) and i got inspired to get one for me, what a great idea! also my little angel can take a break from all my cuddling XD I always saw he is like a live stuffed animal but i cant always treat him like a doll, he is an...

OMG i didnt know this was a thing! i definitely need to get one!! I saw them all, they are very lovely and huggable, I can see how they help. I used to sleep with a doll. She was in charge of protecting me. But its been long since i have appreciated a stuffed animal, this thread inspired me :)...

Yes, he is like a therapy dog i realize. I always want to cuddle with him, sometimes he just needs a break poor thing, i know he loves me but if i dont leave the house he is supposed to meet all my emotional needs. Arent dogs the most amazing creatures? they have such pure ayes and sould. Angels...

thank you Wendell. Its strange, after that fear at night, the day was very positive, I felt different than before. Integrated and hence whole and secure. I know this is just the begginning so im buckling up. Love seeing your profile pic, i find it comforts me too. :)

thank you! makes a lot of sense. If you want to clean up you will have to face some nasty stuff....no way around it! it was totally unexpected but now im aware this can happen and am more ready for it. And i understand it better. Thank you for your support <3

thank you for your support! everything helps, starting by the good intention <3 feels good to have some understanding. I do have a dog! he sleeps on my bed. Luckily I feel so much better now, and i see that opening the lid will have some ugliness. I guess im more ready now that i understand...

Hi Niki <3 I feel your pain. I didnt feel bad after my therapy session initially, but woke up in the middle of the night crying and suicidal. Im not sure what is going on. ty for you mssg <3

I had my first session yesterday wth a therapist. Im not quite sure what happenned or how, all i know is that just by narrating yesterday´s events to her, as well as my abuse and the repeated bullyng pattern, left me in bad shape. I dont understand why. Im afraid by ackowleding ut im making it...

lol thanks for the tips, they were amazing, this is all new to me shut up repelent bitch i wish i could, i wish....in a perfect world. I need to learn how to defend my self though, that is a must, but the freeze is the main object - even if you know how to defend your self and im not dumb...