I have been thinking about what the trigger might be and will discuss with my T. I think the trigger might be my current salary negotiations with my employer and my feelings of powerlessness because I do not have a college degree. That fact is the trigger because it goes back to my childhood...
After about 12 months of weekly therapy I finally arrived at a place where I could make peace with my childhood traumas, at least enough to live my life. When I entered therapy I was severely depressed as my 40+ year secret that I had basically disassociated for my entire life came pouring out...
I have found it quite cathartic to write about my feelings and absorb comments of support and understanding from others. Also 100% find a really good therapist that specializes in sexual abuse.
This weekend I shared this post with my wife, it was hard (not because of her but because of me). She is very supportive as usual but also cry's and grieves over my pain (something I can not do) which is a good thing but it drives me crazy and horrifies me, I need to learn how to deal with that
Thank you, no doubt it is a journey where there is no picture postcard of the destination. I feel much better knowing that I at least have a chance at some type of recovery
Yes I got lucky. I read an article she had written about CSA (her area of specialty) and she was in my city. I reached out...
First, I have to say that while my therapy has been effective it also has been disturbing, on many levels. It has forced me to examine my childhood and to explore a long series of traumas that unknown to me shaped my life.
So based on what I have learned, here are some of the effects and...
I have been in intensive weekly therapy for 9 months. We have made good progress and I have posted here a few times about that. We have touched on my Dad but tomorrow we are going to focus deeply on the subject, I am nervous.
What has been uncovered so far is that in addition to my CSA by a...
Just as an example, prior to therapy if you had asked me about my childhood I would have said it was normal. If you had asked me about my parents I would have said they were the best, I lived my entire life believing this. Therapy has unlocked the truth that my upbringing was far from normal and...