Recent content by Disquieted

Thank you for this! I listened to the entire video this morning and it is spot on. We all need to TALK and our trauma tells the truth with dignity. We need to repeat our stories and have someone to grasp our strong emotions and fear. We need to find someone safe, caring, wise and patient to...

I always plan on being brave and normal and connecting and talking until I get in the waiting room. I become this mess of a person and can't think to talk. I have so much to say yet nothing comes out and I curl up into a ball and panic. Literally I hide my head in my legs and I can't breathe and...

Oh my goodness, I could have written this post. I am also POA for my mom who is the main contributor to my ptsd. I was actually okay until she had a stroke several years back. She went from being independent to unable to drive or make wise decisions. She can walk and talk but still plays games...

I just wanted to say how honest this was. I'm certain we all feel this way at times. It's so difficult to just admit we have needs. Maybe to just come out and preface a post by saying "I need a response or whatever it is" and then carrying that into real life. I'm so not good with that.

Yes, I totally get this. I blog and I know I come off as really messed up because I am. This ptsd messes with my mind and I can't file away the memories like I used to be able to do. It's as if drawers and drawers of thoughts and memories came falling out. Papers scattered throughout my mind...

Oh my goodness, yes. I really couldn't explain it before because it just looks like I'm lazy. My house is in shambles, I'm so behind at work, I've lost most of my friends because I don't want to go outside, I'm trying to train for a 5K but I can't make myself run. I shut down in therapy and...

I'm just having a really difficult day. My psych will just gently ask me if I'm aware that my eyes were looking all around as we practicing mind body awareness skills. Trying to make me aware that I'm feeling anxious. LoL as if I don't already know. I do stink at any and most coping skills...

I don't tell anyone what's going on. I've walled off most of my friends but really I didn't have many to begin with. When I talk to people I focus on them...their life, hobbies, relationships, feelings. I just turn it all back to them and avoid talking about me. If I were to talk about me...

I think I'm just done feeling like this. 4 months of therapy and all I can do is close my eyes without panic. (I wasn't able to close my eyes in the beginning, sometimes I still can't). I'm flooded with intrusive thoughts. I feel like dissociative crap. I'm just so done. I really don't care...

I can't ever quite describe how I feel. Maybe overwhelmed and exhausted. Maybe like my head is a balloon and ready to explode. I'm frustrated that I have ptsd. I want to argue that I couldn't possibly have this diagnosis yet I meeting more criteria needed for the diagnosis. But I was still...

I often wake up drenched. I think it's a combination of nightmares and that I can't sleep unless I am bundled up in blankets and my comforter. It's a safety thing. I feel exposed and so afraid without my covers at night. Logically I'm just hot.

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I never knew what it was...I called it pretending and thought all kids did it. I was probably about 10 years old. I pretended that characters from tv shows were my parents. I talked to them and felt loved. They were more "real" than my biological parents. I knew it wasn't real but it felt...

Thank you...but some of my adult trauma has self created and I am very responsible

Yes, that's how I feel. And I don't know LoL it was stuff "normal" people don't share. Oh yeah, I'm not normal ;) I'll survive and pretend I never said anything!!! Thx