Recent content by Eliza

Thank you. X It feels silly, but it feels like I’ve been pushed so far out of the window that the window is barely in sight anymore. It was my dream job and it feels really stupid to say, but the feelings of going for a job interview are as strong, if not stronger, than the feelings of walking...

Thank you. I’m sort of half-aware that there’s most likely an underlying cause that’s coming to the surface through this, but equally it’s incredibly frustrating that this is what’s brought it all to the surface again! My counsellor after the terrorist attack tried to explain it in terms of a...

Hello! So I lost my dream job the week before I was meant to complete on a house, the same week as the anniversary of surviving a terrorist attack. My job ended in a really horrendous manner. The employers said it’s because I “wasn’t ready” for the role I was in. My friends and family think...

Thank you so much! Yes, it’s been the most long and difficult journey of my life, and I guess, whilst it’s a group of close friends who have known me since childhood, they haven’t seen me in my relatively recovered state since the attack. In fact, it’s probably the first time since the event...

I think you’re right. I think because I was so heavily traumatised for a long time (and I still am for an extent), and they saw me go through a lot of that, they probably thought like I might still be on the edge! I’m genuinely in a good place at the moment, but I suppose they didn’t know that...

Hi folks. I wasn’t quite sure which room to put this in, so I went for general. A few days ago, it was the anniversary of the terrorist attack I survived. We had a nice memorial event, and there were a few people who had survived other attacks there and I made some fantastic connections...

Feeling alone when surrounded by people is such a common experience with PTSD sufferers. I often look around a room and feel like my trauma has made me a different species to everybody else. You are certainly in the right place to connect with people who understand. We are a friendly...

Thank you. Yes, I am definitely going to be more selective as to who I tell now. And also need to remind myself that “no” is a complete sentence if somebody asks me to talk about it. Thank you. I’ve booked the time off as annual leave at the moment, so didn’t need to give an explanation. But I...

Hi all. I started a new job 6 months ago, and I've been trying to be a "new me", and try not to dwell on my PTSD. However, the anniversary is looming, and last year it threw me into a complete spin. I want to tell my team, but I also don't want to dwell on it, as last time I opened up to a...

Hi folks, I have an occupational health review coming up at work and I'm really worried about it. There's nothing they're having to put in place, and the therapist said that he was struck by how much self-awareness I have about how I can best look after myself. But I just can't help getting...

UPDATE: I was meant to go into London on Sunday for this musical theatre club thing that I really really enjoy. But I had such a panic attack the night before, I couldn't bring myself to go. I was utterly convinced that something bad was going to happen, so I had to tell them I had covid...

It's a weird one, because most trauma, people wouldn't dream of asking about. But I think because it's something that's in the news means its fair game for being asked about. Even people who are usually really kind and sensitive have asked me what I actually saw. I need to get better at just...

I was referred for this, but by the time it came around, it was the middle of lockdown and I was staying with my parents in a tiny, safe, little village, so I didn’t feel the need to take them up on it. They said if I ever need it in future, I can skip the assessment and go straight in with the...

This is true. I had a chat today with someone from a victim support charity, and he was brilliant. I think just knowing that how I'm feeling isn't uncommon, and also being able to talk about how I was really feeling. Because I have incredibly supportive friends and family, but there are some...

That makes sense. Honestly, whilst you might not be best qualified to help, you are being a lot more help than I've had from anyone in a while. I much prefer the idea that it is part of my life, rather than part of me. Because saying it's part of me makes me feel like I will never feel better...