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I don't know if it's useful or not but what I myself have found helpful is an understanding that you have these three parts of your brain: the reptilian brain (primal part: related to animal instincts such as fear etc), the emotional brain, and the logical brain. As we grow up we transition from...

The Panic disorder is still progressing in a really positive direction. From having full blown panic attacks all day pretty much constantly up until January, I am now pretty much panic attack free most of the day on a daily basis. It's a lot of mental work and effort but things are easier every...

Thank you everyone for the support I've had regarding my posts on here. As a brief update, I've now been reducing my medication slowly but steadily. I had what was for me one of the most important breakthroughs I've had yet this evening. Since coming down off my meds (benzos... I'm still on...

So, over Christmas I ended up finally having my first appointment with a Psychiatrist, who gave me a full 1 hour consultation and sent me one week later a full breakdown of his diagnosis. The big crazy thing I discovered, was that he diagnosed me with having Panic Disorder, with 'probable'...

Thanks both of you. I ended up going but brought my GoPro with me and made a point of having it filming the whole time, telling my boss before hand that my husband was really excited to see the footage ;P But in the end I was definitely over worrying. He was super excited about seeing the spa...

So my line manager and I are off to Iceland for 4 days from tomorrow in order to set up an exchange with our university and a university over there. He has booked us a session in the blue lagoon (geothermal spa) for tomorrow evening, which he asked me first if I wanted to go to, and said it was...

I've just been put on quetiapine (seroquel) 25mg per night for severe anxiety. Does anyone have any experience with using this medication for anxiety and did it help? Thanks

I know what it is to be in that place. Keep smiling. You can do it. There's always hope, even when things seem as dark as they can possibly get. I've been there, and made it out the other side. Things can and do get better, I promise. My thoughts are with you

I understand how you must feel @Zoogal. I don't know what its worth but I have a similar issue with my hubby as he would like to be intimate far more than we are, which is hardly at all. I have learnt to be straight up frank with him about it. When I'm not in the mood, its always a 'No'. I also...

Thank you @Silver. I agree that backing off is the right thing to do, it feels odd but at the same time necessary. I will be addressing these things in counselling at some stage. We tried to go over some of it during the summer but I ended up re-traumatised so my counsellor currently is working...

I agree @Sandstone . It seems odd to push my own mother away, but I have two people who are quite frankly more important to me to think about right now...

I think you're right @Fadeaway. Thank you for the nudge. I'm leaning towards the backing off route at the minute, it just really goes against the grain with me as I've always tried to hold the family together at all costs... which clearly wasn't effective!

I started writing this post as a response to a poll about what sort of role you have undertaken in your family primarily, which for me was the caretaker/hero, although perhaps 'hero' isn't exactly the right word... In writing the post I began to want to speak about my mother in more depth...

Glad to hear you've had good times in the midst @Friday, wishing you many more

Many thanks @Recovery4Me . The same for you :)