Recent content by emhaines21

Conflict has always been my downfall! I avoid it like the plague! Its so bad now I don't even like paying my bills. Really no conflict there, but everything now feels like conflict to me. If its not I somehow manage to catastrophize the situation to cause anxiety. My mind shuts down, my chest...

Thanks for the words of encouragement! I can use all I can get! I have always catastrophized but it is really bad now! The only time I can relax is when I am sleeping! no way to live!

Well distraction is no longer an option for me! It has all come to a head! Afraid of any added stressor is going to put me over the edge

thank you! Its good to be around people who understand

Thank you! good to know that it may take more time! I was an expert in Distraction! I have had PTSD since I was 7 yrs old but always managed to distract myself from it! Then in 2013/2014 I was hit really hard by 3 major events and I have been a total mess ever since

I am dealing or not dealing with my issues in the same insane methods. I gotta make some change! Anxiety keeps me stuck in my cycle

Hello! there is a lot of people out there that do! The nature of this disease makes you feel like you are the only one!

Grasping at straws, trying to figure out what to do! I have been down and out since 2013 with no end in sight. Beating myself up for not recovering sooner, viscious cycle!!! Depression, isolation, anxiety and so on! I used to be quite aggressive, now I am scared of everything! Feel like life has...