Sufferer I Am Drowning In My Anxiety And Depression, Need People Who Understand!!!

[emhaines21]

Grasping at straws, trying to figure out what to do! I have been down and out since 2013 with no end in sight. Beating myself up for not recovering sooner, viscious cycle!!! Depression, isolation, anxiety and so on! I used to be quite aggressive, now I am scared of everything! Feel like life has totally beat the shit out of me and I havnt hit bottom yet. Things could be much worse, but in my head it feels like the end! I wouldn't wish these feelings on anyone. Positive introduction! Sorry! just don't know where else to turn!

 

[claire east]

Hi i understand if ya want to chat

 

[Nevermore]

Hello @emhaines21
I'm glad you found this site, but sorry you have the need for it too.
My PTSD ( or cptsd in my case) kicked in in 2009, and i just wanted to let you know that got me thd first 3-5 years were the hardest and could see no way out. In the last couple of years I can see a lot of improvement which I felt at one stage was impossible!!
Nice to meet you, and welcome

 

[emhaines21]

Hi i understand if ya want to chat

Hello! there is a lot of people out there that do! The nature of this disease makes you feel like you are the only one!

 

[emhaines21]

Hello @emhaines21
I'm glad you found this site, but sorry you have the need for i...

I am dealing or not dealing with my issues in the same insane methods. I gotta make some change! Anxiety keeps me stuck in my cycle

 

[emhaines21]

Hello @emhaines21
I'm glad you found this site, but sorry you have the need for i...

Thank you! good to know that it may take more time! I was an expert in Distraction! I have had PTSD since I was 7 yrs old but always managed to distract myself from it! Then in 2013/2014 I was hit really hard by 3 major events and I have been a total mess ever since

 

[emhaines21]

Hello @emhaines21
I'm glad you found this site, but sorry you have the need for i...

Hello @emhaines21
I'm glad you found this site, but sorry you have the need for i...

thank you! Its good to be around people who understand

 

[Nevermore]

Aha @emhaines21!!!
That almost sounds like the definition of cptsd. I realise I hadn't dealt with trauma in my life, I too was a very experienced distractor from myself, and similarly traumatic events of seven years ago is what really tipped me over the edge.
But I think I always kinda feared the ship was going to spring a leak and dink one day. It was basically held together with old bandages and bits of sticky tape.
I wish you much healing and recovery

 

[Nevermore]

**sink** one day
Sorry! Autocorrect

 

[emhaines21]

Aha @emhaines21!!!
That almost sounds like the definition of cptsd. I realise I h...

Well distraction is no longer an option for me! It has all come to a head! Afraid of any added stressor is going to put me over the edge

 

[emhaines21]

Thanks for the words of encouragement! I can use all I can get! I have always catastrophized but it is really bad now! The only time I can relax is when I am sleeping! no way to live!

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Recovery takes time-----what matters is that you're working on healing now! :)