Recent content by erigby

I have only been doing EMDR for a short time (4 sessions) but my experience has been that the feels can follow me for a time after, from a couple of hours to a couple of days. I also find I can start getting feelings of depression the day before a session. I think it is just knowing what is...

Dear fellow trauma survivors, I recently started EMDR therapy for childhood trauma(s). Today I had my second session and I am finding that the sessions themselves are very exhausting. I do believe they are helpful. I was in talk therapy for a little over 2 years and had started to get...

@Hopefulphoenix I know it must seem like February might as well be an eternity away...another life-time. Depression makes time stand so still...as if it creeps by without the least amount of care for the one who is suffering. Sleep was often the only way I moved from day to day. It sounds...

I get it. Overcoming those thoughts - "nothing matters" and getting on with doing things that would move me away from my depressed state...one of the hardest things I have ever done...ever. You do matter. To a lot of people. People you may not even be aware of. People here on this forum. How...

Dear DaneLover, I am a bit late to this thread. I do hope you are ok. Please know you are not alone with strong SI. It can be so powerful and overwhelming and in the moment... the only way to make the pain end. I would encourage you to not be afraid of the hospital. It is there to keep you...

no...not really...he did say he didn't want to send me to someone who had very different approaches than he did...in other words "I don't want to send you to someone who has no idea what they are doing and undo all of the work we have done." That sort of thing. Which I can appreciate but it...

It's like you are reading my mind. I can't tell you how I have struggled with something very similar (recognizing every relationship is unique). I'm not sure what to say except... You are not alone. It is so hard. So painful. It sucks. I am so sorry you are experiencing this. Me again. I find...

Hello all, It has been a while since I posted anything on this forum. I realize now it was almost a year ago I posted about a similar issue. My sexual attraction to my therapist has not gone away :/. It seems to come in bursts and sputters and I seemed to be doing much better for a time. It...

Severe MDD crept back in over the past month or so and I have been fighting off very strong SI for several days. I met with my Psychiatrist on Friday who increased my meds and told me to go to therapy more (I go once a week for 50 minutes right now). I was devastated that his suggestion was...

I am so incredibly attached to my T. Some might argue it is his fault. He didn't set good boundaries and maybe that is true but it doesn't change the reality of the fact that...I have realized I am so completely attached to my T and don't know how to function without him in my life. So...now...

How is it going for you so far?

Can you find a new Psychiatrist? I had to go to a couple of different ones before I found one that wasn't intent on my suffering endlessly to find an antidepressant that worked. Keep going to your T every week. The time between those visits can be excruciating. The abuse is not your fault...

I honestly don't know. I just know I chose to go to the hospital rather than fight it anymore. Why do some survive and others don't? Luck, I consider myself lucky, that is all. I have a wonderful husband and 2 beautiful children. A comfortable home and a sweet loving pet. Financial...

I feel like I am very late to this conversation. As of late I only check things on the weekly PTSD topics of the week e-mail sent on Saturday. If this is still an active conversation I would encourage you to talk to whom ever you need to to keep you safe. Old T, new T, it doesn't matter. Keep...

I have been down this road so many times. My T doesn't ask questions at all... I used to wonder if he was even paying attention...but in the end...it all worked. I can't explain it but...it worked. I think it has to do with relationship. I shared so much stuff. He just took it all in...