Recent content by GiantSquid

I think I know the difference. I have experienced two kinds of traumatic events in my life. First category is for events which were terrible and traumatic but I could live with them and through them, although I was no longer the same person. The second category is something I feel in my bones...

I do 15-20 minute workout every day, and if I'm feeling good, another 15 minutes for warmup / cooldown. I use Zuzka Light's online gym. It works for me because it lifts my mood for 2-3 hours afterwards. Since the workouts are short, training every day isn't a problem and I get my daily dopamine...

Last spring I lost my ability to dissociate after trauma therapy had processed to a point where I no longer had different parts. I had no DID diagnosis, but some features of split personality. Previously I had been able to dissociate when I found a situation too unbearable. I found the change...

Today my pdoc decided to apply for permanent disability for me instead of temporary one. I'm grateful for being seen. Also grateful for hope.

I also struggle with being homebound and having too much time in my hands. In my case it's mental issue. I like to attend community college cooking classes online. I'm a bad cook and don't enjoy daily grind of cooking, so I struggle with feeding myself. For some odd reason I like cooking with...

I was quite good. I guess that's why I notice the difference so much.

Harvard medicine says we're right 😞 . The article is more about antidepressants not helping with intelligence issue, but it does confirm that depression affects intelligence.

Has anyone noticed a change in their ability to learn new things after depression? I've been seriously depressed for last 3,5 years and a month ago I decided to try learning a new language because I couldn't bear living in a limbo anymore. It's been a struggle. Teacher uses English to teach me...

This. After my son's suicide, I went down this path. I know other mothers who are there, too. Guilt pushes us. I guess the only reason why I didn't get the candle obsession (some mothers can't bear for the candles on the grave to go out, so they have to go there every day to make certain there...

I have used sickness allowance paid by national insurance (one year), therapy co-paid by national insurance (now on my second year, 3 years is the maximum) temporary disability pension (2,5 years) paid by my pension company and assisted housing paid by local municipality for nine months. Ptsd is...

Is it possible to renovate your bathroom? Or hide the tub behind a shower curtain at least. After my son’s suicide, I had to change everything in my bedroom because it triggered me so badly. (He used to sit there and cry because he was so depressed.) Painting the walls helped most, I could sleep...

I used to be very interested in FIRE movement, specifically Early Retirement Extreme-book & forums and got several good money habits out of that. It was very helpful for me. Every month I write down my income and expenses and make a budget. I get my money in three installments so I need to...

I did well until 39. Then my childhood trauma came back in full force, even though the trigger was rather small. I don’t know what it is about 40s, but it seems like it’s a difficult time for many. For me, I had been putting things aside and using dissociation as a tool to achieve my goals. One...

@silverlinings1069 I'm ok, thank you for checking in ☺️ Thanks for everyone who replied. The thread has been very useful for me. I can't commit to much right now, but I decided to try working out for twenty minutes every day. It's short enough time that I can force myself even on a bad day...

This sounds very familiar. I lost my parents very young, and I never expected to live longer than them. Now I have surpassed one and closing on the other’s age. I’ve been very depressed after a new trauma at 39 and at one point, I wrote funeral instructions and ordered a special cloth for my...