Recent content by Hanala

Although I have written some things here and talked around things to some friends I have never been able to say the actual words of what happened. I speak in euphemisms or have them sort of guess what I am saying. But last night I was able to actually say the words of what happened to a friend...

So the therapist ended our session yesterday with "next week we may want to discuss if I'm really the best therapist for you." I also wasn't feeling it but it doesn't encourage me because we started picking at the trauma and now I have to start over with a new person probably :(. The beginning...

I can't watch it for so many reasons The graphic nature guarantees a flashback I feel immense guilt and shame over not reporting/staying silent I find it annoying when they catch the person and it's all neatly tied up and fixed I find it even more unbearable when it isn't neatly tied up because...

I know that a lot of people don't report but I'm finding myself very upset by these statistics. I shouldn't talk though, I'm part of the percentage that didn't report. It was my best friend's father over a the span of several months so I didn't feel like I could blow up her life too. In the end...

There are so many sweet, innocent people on this forum who suffered things a person should never know about :sorry: it's a huge step to be able to talk about these things and I give you all the kudos in the world for doing it. I hope that you're able to work through this here and with...

I'm sorry for what you've been through. Flashbacks can be so debilitating especially since you have all of the pain/fear/guilt with absolutely no power. The reality is that we had no power over the situation either when it was going on. It's totally understandable to feel guilt (we all do) but...

I'm sorry you're going through this. And it is totally valid. It happens all the time to me too (in varying ways). Sometimes it's just that i disappear into my mind or other times it's like I leave my body and physically can't speak even if I wanted to. I've done it since the (and during) the...

I'm sorry you're having flashbacks. They are honestly the worst because you're minding your own business and then you're back in the trauma with sensory-surround sound but you're also surrounded by people :grumpy: I hope they get back under control. Hang in there

Ugh stress nausea is the worst. Depending on how bad the nausea is I try to find a way to combat it. Sometimes I'll use medications (antacid, PPI, H2 receptor blocker) but often it's just s stop gap. Relaxation and sipping peppermint tea are what helps. Sometimes fresh air and feeling...

I'm Sorry you're struggling right now. If you're on bed rest and feeling hyperactive it can be really hard. Would a stress ball/play dough/ etc help you feel better? It would be something to do with your hands that you can't break. You can squeeze the dough or the ball and chuck it around if you...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time coping right now :( I don't know if I just have social anxiety because it's my personality or because of the PTSD. It's never kept me from school/work but there have for sure been times where I completely avoid friends/any social interaction that's not...

I agree with above. It could just be the loud noises. My trauma has nothing to do with thunder sounds but too much sensory input of any kind can be a trigger. Totally understandable

I think I just need to tell her I can't talk about it now. It's too much and I get too overwhelmed because I honestly don't know how to cope with my feelings and I can't go around being a jerk because I'm triggered. I just bad at saying no to people

I just started therapy and I'm having an exceedingly hard time. The sexual abuse took place 12 years ago when I was a young teen and I never talked about it at all. So there is just a lot shame and silence surrounding it in general. I had my second appointment and she said we didn't have to go...

I don't think it's at all irrational especially if your trauma is connected to childhood. A mascot is like a giant stuffed animal that chases you around. It could be that in of itself and that is totally valid on its own. It could also be the fact that you can't see a mascots face/who they are...