Recent content by Here_Still

Can you extend your range of support tot involve MLA's or people in office in the states that you work or live in to advocate for you?

I know what you are talking about, I was like that most of last year. I missed so much work because of dealing with my stuff, or just being unable to leave the house from, anxiety, fear, being switched on all the time. Things got better, but they got worse or felt like they did, and being on...

I have been given a start date for next week, but have not been provided with travel details from my local health provider that is funding this. I get up and check my voicemail and emails, and when nothing is there I make my calls. It is so frustrating as I know how to manage travel for many...

I have a tiny compass that I where on a cord around my neck, for me it is nice to feel and hold as a talisman, and also reminds me of where I am working on going. It's about the size of a dime but thicker, the same sort of compass I have used in kits before. The feeling of the cord on my neck...

As Friday mentioned it's the hypervigilance and cataloging all that is going around, but added to that it is following the pattern of what is natural or normal and what is not. For me it are out of pattern noises outside, especially when they are close to the house, and more so when I am going...

So it has been a while since I have posted. In this time a lot has occurred, like we all don't feel this. For the most part I have been in a good state, almost normal, but with a few triggers...multiple trailer park thugs with pit bulls on chains, other roughians and above all dealing with...

I am not sure if I twitch or not during the different sleep or sort of sleep states, I do know my ptsd sleep isn't good for anyone around me. There is that weird dream state with ptsd when you are still mobile, unlike REM, but you still dream and move. Or rather, that is my experience. More...

Thanks Fridayjones, your response is comforting. I have taken to sleeping in another room since my ptsd flared up last year, either in the living room on the sofa or a foamy in the spare room to not disturb her at night or to just be safe in my little corner. Being in the other room is also to...

So I am very glad to mention that since I have posted earlier last fall my darkest troubles with this spectre, this ptsd, have lessened significantly. Those thoughts of seriously hurting myself have all but disappeared, the anxiety attacks do not rule me entirely, and the flashbacks are muted...

Hi Folks, I have been away for a bit, normal stuff you know life and revealing some material to the T. Something since then has seriously been triggered, and I suspect that there must be another(s) anniversaries around now that I just can't remember. In summary, I am highly triggered in most...

My position of safety seems to have been bumped, and I need to leg it.

Two nights ago I packaged up all of my work kit and uniform, and yesterday I visited my office to turn in my I.D. and Keys, laptop and et al.,. I also made arrangements for someone from the office to come by and collect the rest of my work kit and uniform. I was just going through the numbers...

Thanks for the sort of clarification, bondage ducky joeylittle, I am not sure if I went over the border or not. Using the resources is always a great option, you just become self conscious when the person on the other end knows you by voice! All day I have been numb from yesterday, and I...

I have got to say that the life line and the canadian version of it are great resources to try to vent. Ok, having someone to talk with and vent off to are wonderful, yet there is that certain part of me that loves that rush of hearing that "click" and still being full of problems, somehow...

Interesting dialogue happening here, and many points said well. I can empathize with pretty much all of you on one level or another. All be well. I used to be able to sleep anywhere, on a sofa, behind a log, in a ditch, where ever and those were the good old days. Now, I have a difficult...