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I´m trying to prepare myself in my thoughts for a meeting on Friday. It is an important meeting for my future. I have to have a plan, but it is difficult. :(I tried to go back to work in September and it didn't work. I thought it was fun and I didn't even need to do any work. Still I couldn't...

I got touched when I saw that Helen B referred to psalm 23. I have been reading that psalm for myself a bit the last week and been feeling that it is so strong. "You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies" that means that He will be there in the middle of the battle and give you...

Yesterday I went to a new helper. I don't know the word in English, but she is a therapeut and also physiotherapist. I hope she will be able to help me. I will start the work with her in january. It is always a bit scary to try to trust somebody again...

I can understand that it is confusing. I want to add to that confusion...;) What exactly are you scared of? Is it a fear for being hurt again if this supervisor isn't such a comforting and good person all the time? Are you scared of being to attached and then able to get very hurt? Are you...

Today I'm out of Flashbacks:) I hope it will stay like that. I just wonder why I'm not able to understand that I have emotional flashes while they are there. It would help me a lot to understand that. Maybe I would be able to get out of them sooner...?

I noticed now that BlueOcean told me about EMDR. Thankyou for wanting to help! Unfortunately I have already tried this a lot and it has only helped a bit. But I´m still hoping to find some help somewhere...

Today I went to a retreat in my church. I was a bit scared that I would get flashbacks when everything gets calm and quiet, but it was OK and I am so grateful.:) It was possible to draw and paint and I did a lot of that. I think that helped me to stay in the present. I Aldo got some new...

A thought that I have had myself that I want to share with you. When you start dealing with the garbage you bring it up to the surface. Then the protective parts of you start working as mad! Then it is easier for you to get to know how you always been trying to protect yourself. Sometimes it...

Today I realized that I probably have had a lot of emotional Flashbacks during a week. That explaines that my body has been so strange, extremly tense and so. I've felt a lot of very dark feelings, endless hoplessness. It is so difficult whith these kind of flashes I think. I normally realize...

It does make sense! I´ve been thinkiing about somethining for myself that you also might have some help of. I think that one part of those lost social skills are that I (and you?) give some uncertain signs to the enviroment. They might feel uncertain about asking you for coming along because...

I have a headache today since I didn´t sleep so well. A bit better now since I took some medicin and rested. I have a hard time keeping some hope for myself. I do feel like my life is endning. I know that I have to stay alive because of my children, but I wonder how. I don't have suicidal...

I recognize a lot that you write. Just wanted you to know that you are not alone with these feelings.

Yesterday I saw my T for the last time. She is quitting and they won't give me another one:( There are few people in this country who knows anything about traumas and about PTSD. Therefore I'm not sure I ever will be able to get that kind of help again. It is tough...:bawling: I feel sad, angry...

When you now think about the things that happened when you were a kid it might change things for the worse for a while...:( It is still a good thing.;) You will have to deal with all these feelings that you pressed down as a kid, but is might be tough...

And I am sorry for your situation brat17 :( It is difficult when the help is a person to trust. Another thing that has been a big problem is that I obviously live in the wrong country when it comes to PTSD. They don't know much so there is lack of help. That also means that it is difficult to...