Recent content by Hypothermia2012

Okay, so I need advice, I previously posted about there being "2 of me", I spoke of violet who is , as I've come to find out, one of my alters. But violet is not what I thought she was (rather who I thought she was) and now there are more. First I spoke of violet being this free spirited...

Thank you everyone for your amazing responses. I will work very hard at keeping violet under control. I feel like she is the reckless teen/child I never got to be. But the actual "me" is the damaged adult with PTSD fighting a internal battle every day. I will admit , it is extremely freeing to...

Thank you for your responses! While I am aware that it happens, I have no recollection of certain things that happen while I'm violet. Such as conversations, how I ended up in places, or how I got into certain clothing. It really concerns me as I know violet is reckless. Hopefully my...

i need help. I've recently noticed that it's almost like 2 different people are living in my body. There is ME, who is very anxious, has frequent flashbacks, and hates social interaction. Then there is "other me" I've named her violet. She is outgoing, spontaneous , she smokes pot, drives to...

myself and my doctor have decided that doing an inpatient treatment for a week or so would be beneficial to my healing (I've had suicidal tendencies) , I am very nervous about this. My anxiety is super high and I feel like I'm being selfish. I have a small child at home, who needs her momma...

Thank you all for your replys. My daughter is 11 months old.. Im going to give in patient a chance... I just hope this is the right choice.

Today, during my session I told my t I was experiencing suicidal thoughts, he suggested that maybe in patient treatment would be a good idea for a week or so. I was opposed to the idea and now I am home. How can I be an inpatient with a small child at home? I can't leave my boyfriend at home for...

I'll bring it up to him...my father was in my life for the first 10 years of it he was an alcoholic, and he was my main abuser. After the first ten years he was in and out of my life for 4 years and then in 2012 he died.. I've always looked at my friends dads and have been extremely jealous over...

ive seen my t only a handful of times..but already I have created this emotional attachment to him, as if he was a father figure or some kind of protector. It feels wrong... But I feel like I need to tell him I just don't know how to say it without sounding like some kind of creep. I'm 18, he's...

My fiancé has found out before, he thinks I've stopped. He really does not understand my need to harm. He has never been under such crippling pain and unimaginable depression that has made him feel the need to find such an outlet. It's very awkward to talk to him about it... He loves and...

It's not the loneliness, it's the hurt and depression and the flashbacks and the night terrors, I just never get a moment, where I am in control, and while I self harm, I'm the one causing the hurt. I'm in control of what I do it that moment. And I get some relief for a few minutes afterwards...

I can't go a day without it. It's all I think about (besides my daughter). Once my baby is in bed, and I'm alone, it's just me and my tools. It's peace, and blissful chaos , it's insane but so, effective... I don't know what to do. My t asks me every week if I've sh since we last spoke and...

You are so brave, and it sounds like you are handling this better than I ever could. If my t left without warning or if I went in on Friday he told me that was our last session, I think I'd just curl up right there and bawl my Eyes out. But you're handling this! You've got this! You will be ok...

I just emailed my T (which felt wrong for some reason) and told him I wasn't quite comfortable just yet with haveing someone else in with me. I love my mom, and I don't want her to see me like that for as long as I can help it..

Also, thank you very much for your reply, you were very informative!! :)