Recent content by Klo

I tend to shy away from social media quite a bit. I think I have just been exposed to too much of the extreme with it. My mother is severely narcissistic, and she passed a lot of her issues onto my brother, as well. My mother is an extremely fake person, and uses social media quite a bit to...

@WhiteHatGirl you are perceiving something real, when you are perceiving that someone is shaming you and blaming you for being a victim of a predator. However, that someone is you. It's your own subconscious mind, your own inner child, that is filled with toxic shame. That is why you see and...

I don't experience any conscious awareness of anxiety, not the sort of anxiety where I feel it, like with a panic attack. But, I do get really severe insomnia the night before every therapy session. I usually wind up being up all night and then going to therapy dead-tired the next day.

Hang in there with no contact / grey rock, it's so worth it and sounds like you are doing really great. Sometimes there is also even hope for the golden child, they are just desperate and misguided and just want to be loved, some of them break free later in life, my brother did (mostly).

Yes I am very hypervigilant-protective of children, for the same sort of reasons. I was so ticked off eventually over all the people hoaxing about some of that pizza place stuff a while back, my anxiety was so bad for weeks I about lost my mind. I understand that it was mostly a lot of trolls...

Also as far as being scared of medications, I completely understand how that can feel. There is a lot of "unknown" involved and the internet is rife with the worst of the worst stories. Having a quality psychiatrist can make a really big difference, where they make sure you can contact them to...

I think medication can help some people, yet not everyone, and also that different medications will help different people, in essence medication A may help person B, but not person C, who may do much better on medication D, while person E may no benefit from any medications. Often the only way...

I can feel some of where you are coming from, sonicwhite. Like when you have been through a lot of terrible crap, your brain is jacked up as a result, you find something that makes you feel and function somewhat better, and then everyone and their uncle hops on the conditioned knee jerk reaction...

This is the biggest indicating factor in my perception. Children who are just exploring with each other do not feel that what they are doing is wrong and needs to be kept a secret. For example kids who play doctor because they realize people's bodies look different under their clothes, and they...

Thank you so much. I think everything is okay again for now. Like I've mentioned before I had a therapist who thought I had DID, and while I don't think I have that exactly, like it's not full-blown with amnesiac barriers or different personalities, I do think I have something similar, just not...

Today I called the number on the back of my Medicaid card. I was bounced around a few times and had to call a couple extra numbers, but finally I was on the line with someone who could tell me which psychiatrists in my whole area will actually take my insurance, since so far everywhere else I...

Heya thanks for asking. I haven't received a call back from anywhere I have tried or left a message so far. Feels pretty weird, trying not to be wigged out by it. Have another place I am calling tomorrow morning. Actually had a pretty good day yesterday. I am casual friends with the neighbor...

Still no return call from the one place, and it has been a week now. Tried getting through to the other place today, multiple calls, none of them had someone pick up, just a recording saying that the receptionist is busy. I left a message with my name, number and asking someone to call me back...

No call today. Just moving on then I guess. There is a facility about half an hour's drive away that has psychiatrists/therapists and does sliding scales, which means they wouldn't reject me just because I use Medicaid / pay out of pocket. So I will call them in the morning until I get through...

Yeah I'm trying not to be too ironic. "I'm not paranoid, and I bet other psychiatrists told you bad things about me, didn't they?!" I can still poke fun at myself, so I guess I'm not totally off the deep end yet. I'm just so used to not being believed or having my concerns dismissed. I get...