Recent content by kona355

Sorry you're going through this -

@Punky143 I know feeling disconnected is really painful. Even when I don't post anything, reading others' posts, what they're going through and some of the really awesome responses help me feel somewhat connected by identifying with some of the issues being discussed. Feeling lost is hard to...

@Punky143 Like t2mforward said, it's not just you...

@moshpitmunkey I know what you mean... it's part of walking the path.

@.45 Princess Are night terrors a trigger sometimes, if they place us mentally in a trauma event? If so, would this cause the feelings hammering you now?

@Link Removed Awesome response!

Welcome - The forum lists are a good place to find what suits the place you find yourself. There are many good people here, very helpful, insightful, and have a lot of experiences.

There are times to do this... At other times follow your heart's desire. Like acting - Dare to believe in yourself... and try putting the feelings aside for a while, even for a few minutes, and ask yourself... "What if...?" It is much easier said than done, I know... but when I Google...

@Link Removed I use what Blurred suggested - breaking it down into 1-5 minute segments... like 'I can eat a little something' then, 'I can shower, 'Okay, I can do the store for a few groceries.' Sometimes this works for weeks at a time till I can get back to a better place.

@Link Removed Go for it!

@Link Removed Do you have an opportunity, like a studio, or someplace available to study acting and music?

@Miaoqing Do you have anything you like to do that can distract you for the time being, like reading, painting, etc? I'm sorry this sounds so lame...

@Link Removed The short answer: Good things like: I feel this way because of what happened to me; Hardly anyone is all bad, therefore I have some good in me; I am good deep in my soul; I'm not stupid; I care about others; I like doing for others; I am conscientious about my work; I am honest...

@Link Removed I'll have to follow up tomorrow, Sat, in the afternoon.

May I share about my experience with this? Self-hatred drove my suicidal thinking for years. To change this mindset of hate I had to begin to focus on the intellectual truth that I wasn't the bad person I felt I was. In the beginning of thinking differently about myself it felt like hypocrisy...