Checking In

[Punky143]

Does anyone else ever feel the need to want to "check in" to this website during the day? Because it's the only connection to people that actually understand? It makes the world a little less lonely at times? Or is it just me?

 

[loui50]

Does anyone else ever feel the need to want to "check in" to this website during the day? Because it's...

Not just you at all!!! I have made friends in chat and talk to them every day in the chat room. You should hang out in the chat room some.

 

[trying2movefwd]

Yes, I stop in often. No, it's not just you @Punky143 . :)

 

[Punky143]

I have tried the chat room but no one talks with me

 

[kona355]

@Punky143

Like t2mforward said, it's not just you...

 

[Naoru]

Not just you. I've sort of lived here the last few days. When you need to, you need to. When you don't, you don't. No judgement.

I second the chat option. Give it another try. I do not chat often (time differences), but it has been helpful in the past. Much cooler people here than in the real world. :cool:

 

[Punky143]

But I'm so far gone today. Trying so hard to hide it from the real world. And everything hurts so much. I want my T to call me back from the 3x I called. I'm a lost soul today. Like I am everyday, and have been my entire life.

 

[EveHarrington]

You're not alone. I've been in chat more than once when nobody will even say hi to me. It's not a good feeling to reach out and be ignored. It feels like getting ignored by the popular people in high school who think you're the scum of the earth.

 

[kona355]

@Punky143

I know feeling disconnected is really painful. Even when I don't post anything, reading others' posts, what they're going through and some of the really awesome responses help me feel somewhat connected by identifying with some of the issues being discussed.

Feeling lost is hard to bear. I know that feeling, it's scary. For me it's like drifting and having no control... not knowing where I'll land or wake up as if this were all a bad dream.

I hope you can hang on for this to pass and you find yourself in a better place emotionally.

 

[Punky143]

I'm nothing today. But. I'm so much more. I want nothing more than to be left alone. I want to sh. It's not me thats telling that. My car took a different route to work today and parked. If it wasn't for my child. If it wasn't for my baby. My T and (I) us talked about going back on meds. I fear this will shut everything down again. Like it always has. Then in another, say, 4ish years, it'll be back. I can now predict this cycle of hell. That is after all, what my diagnoses do. I've learned the coping strategies and been in counseling so its not unfamiliar. Perhaps thats why its more frustrating. It can all depend on "who" is out and "who" wants to to comply. My husband is not supportive. In fact, he tried fighting with me at 5:45am. That is how I started an already miserable day. I want to literally disappear because thats how I feel anyway.

 

[kona355]

Sorry you're going through this -