Recent content by Magnolia

My dog just erased my post! Lol. I don't have the energy to retype it.

I have been in therapy since August. A couple of times he has made an observation/assumption that has not been correct. Last week he made another that really shook me up. I was talking about why the holidays are so hard for me. That Christmas is stressful because my anniversary is the 24th, my...

I support my family financially. I have a husband that is too depressed to work, an adult son who is disabled. And a soon to be adult daughter who is supposed to be finishing high school. I make $28K/year. 3/4 of my paycheck goes to housing. The rest keeps the lights and utilities on. The deal...

I have been trying to date again, and I find that I am in competition with the men I have met. I have insulted them, put on airs, and have rejected their advances. This is completely out of character for me. I want connection, but it seems I am too afraid to let someone in. I too feel I don't...

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It has been a trip. That's for sure. My husband's car didn't make it over the mountain. Had to have it towed 20 miles and the mechanic said it's dead, never to drive again. My daughter got sunburned the next day. She cried all night. This morning we drove 40 miles to Walgreens for burn relief...

My family is driving me nuts. They are so freaking lazy. We are supposed to be on the road in 30 minutes and we are only half loaded. I have been planning this trip for months. I did all the shopping. I loaded my car. I've got like 6 different lists that I'm running through in my brain. There...

I've been thinking a lot about my weight and how stress could be preventing me from reaching my goal. Living in a near constant state of anxiety and losing weight are not condusive. I was pre-diabetic 3 years ago. Now i am eating 1800 calories per day, low carb, no dairy; but I have a thyroid...

I used to go get a tattoo every time I felt like self harming, then as I got older and wiser I got a cover up of a Phoenix for rebirth, starting anew. Recently, I added magnolia branches for strength and courage to continue my journey.

City idiots take sandwiches at lunch. PWHAAT

I have realized that no one will understand me if I don't let them in.

Windchimes

Affirmations... write them down, stick them to the bathroom mirror, listen to a guided meditation every night before you sleep. Do things that reinforce what an awesome person you are. It's not a quick fix but it sure has helped me over the years.

You know you have PTSD when... 1. You are triggered by wild animal documentaries. 2. Grocery shopping feels like an episode of 'Total Wipeout'. 3. Your job feeds into your hypervilligence but its the only place you truly feel in control. 4. Group conversations leave you disoriented. 5. You...

And she lived.