Recent content by Malia

I also experience this! I also had surgeries in the past that I could handle well. I've been to the ER for painful health problems so many times I've lost count! Lately though, everything seems to affect me more. I just broke my finger today and cried like a baby. I never would have done that...

AzureWaves, you are incredibly brave and strong! I had a similar situation for awhile and I would highly recommend finding some way to get as far away from your abuser as you can! It's not surprising that he won't admit to being an abuser in the first place. I experienced the same thing with my...

I do this as well! The worst was when I went to a movie with my husband and there was a rape scene. I definitely wouldn't have gone if I had known that was in it, but alas, I did not. I starting strembling, crying, and ran out of the theater in a panic. It was pretty embarrassing! People were...

I also wake up every night almost exactly two hours after I fall asleep. It's incredibly annoying. I wish I wouldn't! I did notice that if I try to force myself to go back to sleep right away, I get horrible flashback nightmares. It helps if I get up and walk around! I do have a lot of trouble...

Big yes. I've been to so many different counselors and I still haven't received any real help. They told me that I would just "get over it". I also had doctors at the hospital make fun of me for attempting suicide which caused to hang myself in the hospital once.

I have also attempted suicide many times. Cutting my wrists and taking a lot of pills usually....

Ice_Fire, it really is strange to think that your mind hides things from itself. Does it just wait until you're ready to cope? That's pretty amazing. I guess I blame myself a lot for pretty much everything. I feel like if I had remembered some of these things that are coming back to me, maybe it...

Thank you all so much! I will definitely take a good look around here. I'm glad there are sites like this available! Thank you KP! Gizmo, I'm not sure...I definitely need to look into that. There's a mental health facility near me that I'll have to find out more about! Helliepig, thank you...

Hello. My name is Malia; I am a twenty six year old female, and I have been diagnosed with Complex PTSD. The diagnosis is fairly recent so I'm still learning about it and trying to come to terms with things. Posting on here is kind of scary for me, but it's definitely a step I need to take. So...