Recent content by Matt1055

I'm going in to the VA tonight. The crushing depression is bearing down... won a lot of battles, yet the front keeps moving backward. 'Fer crying out loud, just calling these folks felt like running naked around Green Lake. Pushing boulders. I'll let you know how it goes. M

Ugh. Its got to be so rough to be in love with a PTSD sufferer. My ex wife was manic depressive, is today going to be a bad day(s), where she cannot get out of bed, leaves the curtains closed, or a manic day where she paints the basement- roof, walls & ceiling chartruse (I'm not kidding!)...

Welcome, Kat. What a horrible experience. I'm certain there is a special little corner in Hell for persons you faced. Keep moving forward. Welcome to the forums! M

I have a few classic Mercedes. My "way out" has been backing my favorite (neither the most expensive, or the flashiest, but it's my fave) into the small garage. Put some old Motown on the radio, let her idle & slip away. Luckily, I have a kid & a dog I love even more than the'Benz...

Hey, @Becksknox I'm just one of the sufferers, so I can only imagine what we put those around us through. It cannot be pleasant. Someone wiser than I said that the path to recovery is actually a bunch of circles, some large, some smaller, but rarely is it a straight line. M

Thanks. There are limited numbers of options to process this, 1)avoidance- worked great for a number of years, 2)Drinks/Drugs- worked great for years after avoidance stopped working. After that car fire, its obvious 1 isn't working that well anymore, and 2 is killing me. However, this is the...

Ugh. Thanx. It's out there. Time shall tell. M

Everyone here thinks of you as a hero, @fuzzypenguin (Little "h", but better than a kick in the ass!) That's today. Tomorrow, more mountains, more boulders. (Or if you're in Australia apparently, shit & pointy sticks!) :joyful: M Oh, gawd I crack myself up!! Too bad it all seems lost on...

It's rough. I know it, too. But its not a f***ing boulder, and you're not climbing mountains, its a telephone call to someone you love. Anyone of many, I'm sure! Pick up the phone, @fuzzypenguin . You may hate me for coahing you here, but there were times i hated all my fave coaches. I'm...

So sorry. The film was obviously not a mass market flick, even years ago. I saw it on Netflix, but it appears to be gone now. If you find it, do watch it. Sorry. M

@CharMarSpar - Welcome, and I could say something, however so much has been said above, and far more eloquently than I could. We are here for you, I hope that you find something useful here, and decide to contribute in return. Additionaly, you are wanted, needed, and loved. You are...

Find a group in your city to meet with... many cities allow you to call "411". I'm sure you will find many others who have been where you are. They may even have something helpful for you. You are wanted, needed, and despite what your mind may try to tell you at this point, loved. M

That was brave. It can feel like pushing boulders uphill, no? Let us all know how the call goes, my friend. :cool: Keep moving forward. M

Thanx. All of you. It's tough seeing an operation go violently sideways... with tragic results. What makes me sick, and gums up my mind to this day is the callousness my friend's life was swept aside, as so often happens in our military. Especially if that life is young & enlisted. Why were...

Guilty as charged. I've been down this road enough that I understand that if you don't keep moving forward, you are moving backwards. I reached out to a great friend who thought I "fell off the edge of the Earth" when this depression crashed down on me a month or so ago. Actually the talk...