Recent content by McCray

Hi guys..I haven't been on in a while. I've been making some great strides with my PTSD, however I still have problems every now and then. Honestly, this is the best advice forum I have ever found. I went to something else, but people don't seem to "get" it with this disease unless they too...

My psychiatrist won't Prescribe more meds until I make an appointment. Which is tomorrow but I've been waiting all week. I take Zoloft. I'm noticing especially in the last few hours I'm having really obnoxious and petty thoughts. There's this person who I hate with all my being, on or off my...

Yes, I get auditory hallucinations every now and again. But for me most is visual. I have a rough time with sleep too. I go through binges where I sleep for 12-15 hours and then I won't sleep at all the next night and following that day I'll take naps throughout the day. Come to think of it...

So I haven't been on in maybe 8 months.My life is actually doing really well..ever since I started Zoloft I have noticed a huge change in myself. I leave the house, I have hobbies,and I even became a real estate agent. One of my biggest accomplishments of all howeverwas finally working up the...

I came from a difficult past like many of us. I started self harming when I was 8 years old, the trigger point was being molested. I showed signs of mental illness before that. I first used this forum last year..I had no life and nothing to live for where I was. Jump 1 year later and though I...

I had been experiencing a flashback for a couple hours last night. So I decided to write a long message to my friend I feel safest with about what I am going through. He only very briefly knows I have ptsd. He saw the message hours ago but has not responded so I take that as rejection and it...

I have noticed ever since sexual abuse 8 years ago.. I have found myself unable to connect deeply with more than one person at a time. I can maintain 2-3 friendships at a time. However only one of those people can be THE person. "THE" person is someone I connect with above all else,want to be...

I guess this has been a compulsive thought on my mind lately. How alcohol has hurt those around me. Let me start by saying I only drank alcohol once in my life, a small can of Heineken and that was it. Never again. But them I think of someone I care for very much..a friendship I should have...

In my past I frequently suffered from flashbacks regarding sexual abuse. I still do have these, however I am making progress with the help of medication and psychiatrists. However I also am recently overcoming severe anorexia. I am so glad to be out of the situation I was in. That was a scary...

I feel more attractive at the weight I am right now..but even better when I was 130. However my ribs sticked out at that weight, and a sick part of me enjoys that. I like when I can see my ribs and my hip bones sticking out. I know that sounds awful :/ I've never been very "social" to the...

I don't want to eat because i have a very strange concept about food and weight. It is kind of like money. Where the more I save and the lower my weight is the more pounds I have to spare. I won't "spend" those pounds unless it is absolutely necessary. On another note Zoloft has destroyed my...

I have been a girl of many different sizes. When I was 8 i got sexually abused. From there the weight kept coming on. Until age 14 i was 230 pounds with a BMI of 39 (35 is morbidly obese!). I am now 17 and 134 pounds. But..it just is not enough for me. I want to weigh less. Due to my...

Everything today I just kind of a blur..I don't know if it's tied to ptsd or something else but I just feel lost and nobody is around for me When I think of my day it started pretty good. My friend came over after he was done with work and stayed until 5:00 am. I went to bed at 8:00 and woke up...

Thank you so much for that insight. I suppose I have never had a child of my own (too young! Lol) so not being exposed to young kids very often I didn't consider that..very interesting. It is comforting in a sense to know I'm not alone when dealing with this and maybe being exposed to a normal...

Today when I was waiting for my therapist in the reception office there was also a little boy..he was a pretty happy kid. He was running frantically around the room and then started playing with some toys set aside in the corner..then my mind brought back something disturbing In the past few...