Recent content by Needwings4

I’m new here and I’ve been making my way through this thread. Hence all the likes of old post. Just wanted to say wow so much of the things you write, especially regarding your marriage, I identify with so much. It feels like I could’ve written many of them myself tbh. Thank you for sharing!

I relate to this soo much. I’m sorry you know the feeling 🫂

Back at you! Thanks for letting me vent. It really does help to know someone else gets it. I’m here if you need to talk, anytime.

Good question. Had to think about that for a second. Unfortunately I think if another person was involved I would need it to be sexual. I don’t really know why that is. Like it’s a pain that is similar but different from SHing alone by myself. Doesn’t that make sense?

I could see how therapy would make it worse initially. Focusing on past trauma would make the urge worse. I never want that type stuff until I’m having all the flashbacks and crap. Which the in turn makes me feel disgusting. It’s like all I want is pain.

Wow you do get it! I’ve been trying so hard to resist doing precisely that. I don’t want to hurt my husband is the only reason why I don’t. But it’s so hard to resist when he won’t do anything.

Ty. At least I know I’m not alone. It’s just very confusing and makes me feel so messed up. At this point I guess I’m going to have to find a way to get therapy. Doesn’t seem to be any other option lol. All I can do is laugh at this point 😅

Not currently. In the past I’ve tried them all, including Prazosin but nothing helped. I am working. Not well though lol. I’m a nurse and completely burnt out. I can’t not work though because my husband just quit his job without discussing with me and has no plan. So I’m covering everything...

Lol logically I know this but idk it just seems to help. Very temporarily but at this point I’ll take any relief I can get.

I have a cycle. Something stressful happens and triggers me. Then I start having flashbacks and nightmares of CSA. Also have a relapse of ED and SH and then I become extremely hyper sexual. I crave very rough, dark sex. I feel so gross and ashamed. Which is the problem- My husband a) has a low...

🤔 interesting. Maybe I need some more sugar. My blood sugars have been low lately. However that ED voice just won’t let me eat anything with sugar. Only sugar I’m getting is from alcohol. I drink to try to push past the nightmares to get some sleep. Doesn’t work though. Drinking helps me fall...

Thank you. Sorry you’re having a hard time also. Take care 🫂

Thank you. I hate that you know the feeling! It sucks when you have so many negative coping skills that are addictive. Everything just compounds! I will definitely check out that article. Try to take care of yourself.

Ty! Unfortunately I can’t afford a therapist right now.

I’ve had a lot of stressful life events lately and the stress has caused a huge flair-up of everything. A huge relapse of my eating disorder. Flashbacks and nighty nightmares of my CSA. I’m just exhausted. I can’t eat. Afraid to sleep. Huge urge to self-harm. Idk what to do. I don’t have anyone...